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"6:59 a.m" it read on my digital clock, nagising na naman ako nang mas maaga kaysa sa alarm ko. I don't really know what's happening to me these days, he's gone pero bakit hanggang ngayon naiisip ko pa rin siya? Bakit yung sakit hanggang ngayon ramdam ko pa? Bakit kahit anong gawin ko lahat nalang ng bagay nakakapagpaalala sa akin sa kanya? Hanggang kelan kaya ako makukulong sa malulungkot na alaala ng kahapon naming dalawa?

I shook my head to get these thoughts out of my own head. I decided to get up and just get ready for my day. I took a shower, a very quick one since the water is too cold for my liking saka siguro na din sa fact na kapag tinagalan ko ang pagligo ay maiisip ko na naman sya at well another breakdown na naman ito panigurado.

I was picking out what clothes I will be wearing today nang biglang tumunog ang alarm clock ko at nilapitan ko ito para i-snooze off, napansin kong may notification ang phone ko kaya kinuha ko ito. 'Ang aga-aga tumatawag itong si Sonaya' sabi ko sa isip ko nang sagutin ko ang tawag nya.

"Hello! Good morning beautiful!" Sonaya and her gleeful morning greetings.

Napailing nalang ako bago magsalita,
"Hey, Good morning Sonaya. Aga mo atang napatawag ha?"

She would always greet me with a smile on her face, I could tell she's smiling right now, "I know you'll be most likely awake this time in the morning," I could feel her grin and to be honest, gusto ko syang kaltukan "Now, now dear alam kong gusto mo akong kaltukan right now but please relax will you?" how did she knew that?

"What do you want this early Sonaya?," I irritatedly asked her, "you do know na I'm only wearing a towel right now diba?" she gasped then snorted after, it's not a very good sound.

"My dear Zia I didn't mean to bother you, it's just that I wanna let you know that our classes would start at seven-forty-five and it's already seven-fifteen. Kung ako sayo bilisan mo na dyan dahil dadaanan kita. i got so much to tell" oh shit! nakalimutan kong mas maaga na pala ang pasok namin ngayon. Buti nalang nagising ako ng maaga, well it's kinda late but nevermind about that. I need to hurry.

I ended the call without saying goodbye then I hurriedly picked some random clothes, I went inside the bathroom then put my clothes on. Really Zia? Dress? a cream dress with little flowers on them? Oh come on self now isn't the time to change clothes. I quickly dried my hair then put some little bit of makeup. Arggh! Ang gulo ng buhok ko nakairita naman. I decided to just put my hair in a ponytail then sprayed some perfume on me.

The smell, it reminded me of him. It's his favourite perfume. I remember how he used to say he likes my perfume for two things. One I smell nice, like flowers and Two the scent. He said it will always remind him of me. Ever since then ito na ang palagi kong binibiling pabango not only because it reminds me of him but also it reminds me of those happy days we once had. Betraying tears almost escaped from my eyes but I didn't let them this time. No time for shedding tears. No time for reminiscing those moments with him. Before, there wasn't a day that I wouldn't cry, begging silently for him to come back even though alam kong he's not coming back. Pinilit kong isantabi ang nararamdaman kong lungkot at nagpasyang lumabas na ng banyo at kuhain ang sapatos at denim jacket ko.

Isinara ko ang pinto ng aking kwarto nang marinig ang busina ng kotse sa labas ng aking bahay. Nakakapagtaka dahil hindi pamilyar ang businang iyon. Habang pababa ng hagdan ay isinusuot ko na ang sapatos ko kahit alam kong may chance na mahulog ako sa hagdan. I've done this before so the physical pain I might get would be nothing compare to the emotional pain he caused.

"Zia anak? naka-ready ka na ba hija?" Rinig kong tanong ni mama. Amoy na amoy ko ang waffles, hot dogs, bacon and eggs lalo na ang coffee mula kusina.