Paper Stars

A Dream of Mine

My name is Crisha Mae Vermue. I'm here to tell you a story about my dream that came true, now don't get me wrong its not the dream that I want to be, have or what so ever. It's just a simple dream of mine that I remember clearly since I was a child. So let's get started.

First  let me introduce my family. I live with my a small family, I have a brother named Greygory, he always dreamt about being a lawyer someday, and both of our parents are workaholic but me and my brother Greygory understood why they're busy and it's because they're doing it for us, for us to live a comfortable and happy life.

But unfortunately life wants to play with us. Life's game for me started early.

It was when I was 9 years old I dreamt about a guy with a white hair color, he taught me how to make tiny origami paper stars and told me that if I filled a jar full of these, he would grant me a wish, any wish. I don't know why but I suddenly woke up and sat in front of my study table and started to make a few tiny paper stars, It's amazing how I remembered the way he taught me of how to make it and the fact that I don't usually believe in my dreams, but this one, I made an exception.

When I was in elementary school, I was 10 years old back then and I had friends, many of them, but at one incident they all left me behind and started to backstab me, and it's because they thought I had a crush on my best friend's crush, Zack, and the one who has a crush on him is none other than Jayne, and everyone loves her, they misunderstood me of having a crush on Zack, because he was my seatmate, and so I tried to convince them and I even asked Jayne to believe me but unfortunately they didn't believe me because Jayne said so, and then they started casting me out and even the boys participated, I was sad, that to my friends the years that we spent together doesn't matter at all.

Since then whenever something bad happened to me, or that I'm sad and lonely I would make some tiny paper stars to relax myself and to calm my mind.

And when I entered High School at the age of 15, I was still left out, not because of the incident but because I'm scared that if I ever made a mistake in front of them they would instantly leave and hate me. It's amazing how my classmates can ignore me easily and act like I'm not even there. I don't know how should I feel, If I should be happy that I don't have to deal with them, or that I should be lonely because I don't have someone to share things with.

It continued until graduation, but sometimes some of my classmates talk to me whenever they need something and one day two girls that always asked for my help said that I'm not so bad, they thought I was a snobbish girl that doesn't like to hang out with them and such, and then I started to smile and changed my facial expressions and expressed myself truly even though some of the people still doesn't like me. I still continued making paper stars though and it was half way close to being filled with tiny paper stars.

When I was 20 years old I was in college and I started going out  with the boy named Alex, he was a cheerful-kind-of-guy and he always took my problems away and the pressure of my parents wanting  me to pass college. He's like a precious gem to me, I don't want a single scratch that could hurt him. Alex and I was going to celebrate our monthsary and meet up at the nearest fancy restaurant, when I saw him I instantly smiled and hugged him, but his response was different, he tore me away from him and said "I'm so sorry, I didn't know It'll come to this."

I was beyond confused and told him to explain himself more thoroughly.

He said "I had a child from another girl, I used you to escape from it until the DNA shows that I'm truly the father of that baby"

"while we were in a relationship I truly love her, Marianne the mother of my baby" he continued

"I was just scared that I can't handle a child at my age. I truly regret using you, and I can't leave you because of your problems with your parents." he said while crying

I can't take it any more, I can't see my loved one being hurt and bear all the feelings just for my selfish wish and so I said "Let's go, I want to meet your baby" while smiling.

When I got home I cried while making some paper stars and I was proud that I made the right choice, I don't want to ruin the love story of Alex and Marianne. At first I thought I wouldn't like the girl Alex loves and when I met her, she was adorable, she was the definition of Goddess, she's pretty and funny and they look perfect for each other to the point that I ship them.

Years passed by and It was already my 23rd birthday and my family promised me that we'll celebrate it at home; because it's the only day they're all free from work. So I got home early to prepare my outfit but they're still not home, I waited hours until I got a text from my mom and she texted me that all of them are busy. I was sad I admit that, but I can't afford to cry when it's just me being selfish.

And so I went out to buy myself a cupcake and tiny candles and went home. I lit up the candles that I placed at the top of the cupcake I bought and just stared at the candles and I started sobbing. Until I remembered my jar that was filled with tiny paper stars that I made and started making some again until it filled the jar and so I ran outside the balcony and looked up at the sky and was amazed to see a sky full of twinkling stars and it makes me more sadder and lonelier than before, and so I cried out loud, loud enough to voice out my thoughts, and as I cried I clench my eyes and the jar tightly waiting for something to happen.

And then felt a presence in front of me , so I opened my eyes and saw the same man that was in my dream years ago and I just stood there shocked at what I was seeing right now. The man wears a magician's outfit and was standing at the railings in front of me while smiling at me.

"Hey, so you want to run away right?"  he said

"Hold my hand and we'll go far away from this horrible place you're living in" he continued

"What? No. running away means you lose the game." I said in a "duh" tone

he looked at me with a confused face.

"That's your wish right? That's why you filled that jar so that you can escape your life, because it's horrible, your friends left you, your boyfriend played you and even your family doesn't care about you, so why stay here? You can live another life that is far more better and peaceful." He inquired

I looked at him confusedly and answered him with an irritated tone

"You're definitely wrong"

He looked at me as if I said something wrong and asked

"Why?"

I sighed and answered him with confidence

"First of all without Jayne and her friends I wouldn't know what are true friends, and secondly my ex boyfriend didn't played me, I let him go because he deserves better, fourthly if my family doesn't care about me then my brother wouldn't have to protected me as a brother, my mom wouldn't have to work her ass off just to buy me new clothes even if they're not comfortable to wear, I still love it, and Dad would have allowed me to have a boyfriend and doesn't care about it, but no, he just needs to call my ex-boyfriend secretly just to make sure I was in safe hands. And please, just because I experienced bad things doesn't mean I hate my life, Life may play around with you but the thing is you just need to get used to it and you'll come around finding yourself smiling at small things. What kind of life that is more better? There is nothing better than living the life that was given to you than choosing one because it will have no meaning of living then. and lastly the life that is more peaceful? Please that's not what you call life, that's death." I explained and huffed because I said too much.

He smiled and asked "Then what is your wish?"

I grinned at him and said "I just need someone to celebrate my birthday with."

He smiled and nodded and we shared the night by watching movies in the living room, and talked about a lot of stuff, until I fell asleep at the couch.

And by the time I woke up I saw a star shaped pillow written on it was "Happy Birthday" in the center and was clearly handwritten by someone and below it, was his name "Best Friend".

 Thank you for letting me meet you... and granting my little dream even if it's just for one day.

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This is my first Short Story, actually this is for my english project. I hope you like it. :) 

I TRIED