I walk down the stairs and look up to my room. This is the last time for a long time I will see my room. My bed will be slept in by other people than me. I'm not saying that I will miss anything. All I want, right now is to get out of here. I just finished school and I'm tired of this shit.
I want nothing to do with school, boys or girl drama or any drama at all. All I want is to let myself loose in Australia this one time.
'Mom, I'm leaving now...' I can't finish my sentence until she's already in the room with me. Her eyes is proud but filled with tears. I got my emotional part for her. Just looking at her made me sad, of course I'll miss my mother.
'So you won't be back for a while now. Please be careful and you know.. Be save... Always.' She gave me the look. She meant sex basically. I have got used to this so I don't really think it's embarrassing any more. I give her a doubtful laugh and hugged her hard and long. 'mom.. I will miss you..'
Dad stood with the keys in his hands, waiting for me. Mom looked at me while I walked further down the stairs into the garage. Her gaze was filled with love but even then I could see that she really didn't want me to go. But I know what's best for me and this is it. I really need this.
When we sat in the car, me and dad. It was fairly quiet. He open his mouth once but not long after he close it. He has those thoughtful eyes like its something he wants to tell me. 'What is it, dad?' I turn my head to look at him. He turn his head fast and look into my eyes and then back at the road. 'Dont make mistake you'll regret. Life is about mistakes, trust your old man I know. It's not about making them too big though. You know that you live in Sweden and you're coming back soon...' I interrupted him. 'Dad! I know where I'm standing right now in life and I hope that going the the Australia will change me some, if I make mistakes it's my mistakes to make you know, all the mistakes that you've made have made you to the person you are today and I don't have that. I just want to see the world and find new friends and I know all people may not be as nice as you dad but, you know I'll be safe and I'll call you everyday. I love you but you need to calm down.. I know you care and I'm happy you're saying it but I don't want you to worry either.' I needed to stop to take a breath. It went quiet once again.
His look wasn't sad, I think I actually proved something by saying that, prove that I may be a young adult but I have the brain of an adult... At least he thinks. I want to make mistakes! Like dad said not too big though.
I could see the airport far away. I looked over to dad and asked him straight out: 'Are you okay with this?'
He looked at me with a funny look and said 'I don't get to choose that, do I? It's your choice like you said.'
