Im sure you all know of that sensitive person your around all the time. Well, for the people that know me personaly you now who im talking about. I am the type of guy that is way too sensitive. All of my life i have been through family troubles, friends and girls.
For several years my family has been in a mess, fight pretty much everyday and its afecting so much. One night it became so bad i ran away from home. I packet my bags and hoped on my ATV and took of to my grandparents. Unfortunatly, my mom found me there that night and i ended up going home but it was still hell that night. Up to this day its still bad.
As you get older, you change; Mentaly and Physically. I will admit it right now, i do have bad anger issues and it bothered me and it still does. I tried everything all the way down to hypnosise, but nothing seemed to work. It all started in grade 6. I was friends will 2 of the most popular guys in my class, although i thought we were friend until i finnaly realized they were not the right people for me. Now i am not saying just cause they treat me like shit dosent mean there bad people. And i only realized it in grad 9!!!!!. So one of the guys lets call him Joe.
So me and Joe were friends since like kindergarden. We hung out too and did lots of stuff together. We both bought ATV's in the last 2 years and we went to hockey games together and we went for drives. But as soon as one person showed up. He turned into the meanest man alive, a real ass hole but i was too stupid to realize it. Joe made fun of me in everyway, and the unthinkable happened, he turned grade 4 to 12 against me by calling me names and shit like that. It eventually got better but it still isnt great.
And now the seconde guy lets call him Dave. So Dave was like Joe's sidekick. When we were kids we got along good, i have picture at home of me and him at the rink laughing and playing together but it kinda just fadded away. A few springs ago, we were in the ATV trails and Dave's ATV broke down in the middle of the trails. We were just the two of us, so I told him i would towe him home so i did. He thanked me a few times and whatever. The next day i said to myself WTF why didnt i leave the ass hole were he was?. Beacause i am not an asshole myself. After this he kept going on with his routine,picking on me and so on.
So last year i finally, after 4 bloody years of being treated like crap from them i said to myself, its time to move on. And i did, they still bully me and shit but who cares. When the school year started, it was a ruff start, i was forced to see my ex everyday. And i was still a bit emotional about it even though it had only lasted a week cause i really thought me and her had something. I was kranky and cursing Joe and Dave down in class, getting detension. It has just crazy.
My friends noticed and notice that i have anger issues. To be honnest my friends and classmates are like my first family, they have always been there for me. If it were not for them, i would never be were i am now. But i almost lost two of my friends. These two awesome girls in my class tought me so much on letting go. Lets call them Katie and Britney, So at one point this school year i turned into a phyco maniac and sent terribly mean texts to Katie and Britney. It took about a week for them to forgive me. If i would have been them, i sure is hell would'nt have forgiven me.
After all of this, i started to go see a anger management doctor, he helped me some but it just was'nt enough. I went to my school guidance couselor but again it was'nt helping. Then one day i dicovered LETTING GO. let go of all you emotional feelings, of your past, start over. So thats what i did, my grades in school are good, i dont feel alone in my class anymore, people are texting me and im not the one who needs to text them.
Its no fun being alone in your own little corner, there also another girl in my class that came to see me at one point at the cafeteria and told me that i just needed to Let Go. Thats were i discovered it. It took a while to get my life back in order. Its still in a bit of a mess but at least im a much happier person.
I kept making the situation worst. Cursing guys down, fighting with them just everything. Trying to prove your tuff isnt gona help anything it just makes it worst.
So if your in a position were your getting bullied or you have anger issues or family issues. Think of this, Let go of of this, Let go of that. Let Go of that anger you have, Let go of that person you miss. Live life, enjoy life. Dont start your life like i did and hang out with the wrong people.
