Epiphany

On the Stage

The MC continued to talk and talk and talk...

Jungkook was at his limit and the worst of it was that Jin made sure to stay beside him on the stage .

Even though he had tried to step back and to go towards Jimin.

It would have made Jin so sooo jealous doing an amount so high of fanservice, or how his fans named it "Jikook moments " , that Jin would have begged him to stop with burnig stares .

This was what he wanted ... but the Universe never does what you want.

Jin stayed so close to him all the time , he even tried to touch his chin like he always did from the first day they encountered.

Initially it was a brotherly thing .

He was his oldest hyung so those touches remained even after they decided to try to stay together as a couple.

But not for fans...for them they were only family related type of touches . So for Jungkook to see his fiancé doing only those things on the stage for the fans to see , it was like he was denying their relationship .

Giving free rein to their fans once again to fill the internet with videos of Jin parenting him , or with compilations of "mother-son" relationship . Sometimes he found those thinghs funny and interesting ....but when he was angry with Jin... they only put the situation to a worse and worse state.

So to hell he would let Jin touch him !

But minutes passed....

and like always the stubbornness turned to slight sadness.

Specially when he saw that Jin was more sad than angry for the fact that Jungkook didin't let him touch him.

He didn't even flinch when he saw Jhope stretching out his arm around Jin's shoulders.

He felt just numb .

It wasn't the best moment to close all the rest of the world out of him , when anytime Joon or the MC could ask him a question....

But he wasn't in the mood.

He even started to remember the moments of two years ago when he was cutting himself .

Surely the worst moments of his life

But at least it gave him relief from fame and problems with the group or even with the relationship with Jin ; even if for a brief moment .

His thoughts were turning darker when he suddenly felt a hand under his chin.

He slightly turned his head to see it was Jin's hand .

His love smiled.

The love of his life smiled the most beautiful smile a human being could ever do.

He was sure of it and he was even sure he wasn't biased : fans would have agreed with him.

That smile cancelled all the sadness and dark thoughts he was having in that moment .

All the anger flew away and he let himself bask in the splendour of his fiancè .

He let Jin touch him ... f*ck the jealous fans , the stage and all the rest .

He noticed that Jin was more happy now that he let himself be relaxed .

They separated themself once more after like 20 seconds and finished happily the show on stage.

That turn of events triggered something in him

A simple touch after all those really depressing thoughts awoke something in Jungkook.

He was sure that this was the night to resolve things.

He would have talked to Jin on the lake while they were fishing and once for all decide together what to do not to fall anymore.

He didn't want to start once again to cut himself , or to loath himself so much that he would not talk for weeks.

He was sure he would never recover if he did.