I was supposed to smoke with Jacob today, but he couldn’t. We’re smoking Saturday now.
Did I ever tell you my biggest fear? It’s strange. It’s kind of odd. I’m afraid of becoming part of authority. Of growing up, really. Of getting a job and going to school and making something of my life. It’s like I want to be a dropout. I want to sleep on the streets. I want that type of lifestyle. And maybe that’s what scares me. I just don’t know what’s wrong with me. Do normal people feel like this?
I watched a movie today with one of my friends. It’s called Donnie Darko. I thought it was awful. It scared me and confused me, and made my chest feel dark. But then I started to work it over in my head and it made more sense. It was weird. And creepy, definitely. But beautiful and amazingly complex. It’s one of those movies you have to watch over a few times before you fully understand what’s going on.
Anyway, my chest still feels dark. It’s been like that all night, actually. Maybe it’s because today is my stepdads birthday. I hate my stepdad. He thinks I’m the third antichrist.
But then again, so do I.
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The Diaries of Rred
Non-FictionIf you've ever wondered what it's like to do drugs, then keep reading. You'll find out. I'm Rred, and these are my diaries.
