"Can I talk now?" He asked softly and I nodded and wiped my face. "I love you. Only you. You need to hear that above everything else. The photos for the press are exactly that, for the press. I'm sorry that they've upset you, I didn't think how it would look especially today. But I promise you I spent the whole day thinking about getting back to you! I spend my days with Freema because it's my job, I spend my life with you because, and you're gonna hear a lot of this, I LOVE YOU!" He moved a little closer and handed me a napkin as I sniffed. "Yes we have a chemistry, that's why we were cast together. Do we flirt? Maybe and I will try my best to not engage so much with that, but it's me, you know what I'm like. I'm not flirting to get into someone's pants, yours are the only ones I want to be in" he smiled and I scoffed a chuckle. "I'm not sleeping with her 'Ne! I swear, it's nothing more than friendship. I wouldn't dream of hurting you" he was much closer now. His hand reaching along the sofa seat towards me. I flopped my head forward and onto his shoulder and he breathed a sigh of relief and held me close. "I'm sorry"
"No I'm sorry," I blubbered again.
"Hey! Come on, stop the tears" he wiped my face and gave me a kiss. I was about to say something when the tequila had decided enough was enough, I held my mouth and dashed to the bathroom!
As if I didn't feel bad enough, now I was bringing back up the contents of my day drinking. At least I had something else to feel shit about. As I stopped heaving and had managed a sip of water from the tap there was a gentle knock at the door.
"Hey?" He came in slowly. "How you doing?"
"You know what? Better now it's out" I sat on the edge of the tub and he handed me I cool flannel and my bottle of water. I didn't know if I meant the alcohol or the Freema thing.
"Can I do anything?" He asked leaning against the door frame.
"I think I'm gonna attempt a tooth brush and a shower"
"I could scrub your back?" He winked before heading my way and helping me to my feet.
"I'd like that"
He headed out quickly to turn off the telly he'd had on to drown out the sounds of my vom. Not one for anything gross, he couldn't listen to that. I brushed my teeth - twice, gargled with mouthwash and gave my face a good scrub and by the time he came back in and turned the shower on I felt almost presentable. Still a little drunk and unstable on my feet he turned me towards him and signalled for me to put my hands over my head so he could help me off with my dress.
He slowly pulled the material over my head and he breath hitches as he looked down. I'd practically forgotten what I was wearing after all of the fuss and booze. He smiled and coked his head as he checked out my skimpy underwear, a lace balcony bra and thong. "All this time you've been wearing that?"
"Well, I'd planned to surprise you before I got all upset"
"Consider me surprised" he smiled and bent to kiss my neck, his hands tracing along my hips. "Is this ok? I feel like a hour ago you were ready to leave me, I don't want to rush things"
"I didn't want to leave you. I thought you were going to leave me!"
"Never!" He growled as my hands reached for his pants letting him know that making up was definitely what I wanted.
We stripped each other of our clothes and headed into the steaming shower. The heat and back rub Ryan gave me under the stream of the hot water instantly made me feel so much better. Still tipsy, but I no longer felt like I was spinning all of the time. His hands slipped from my shoulders, caressing my nipples on the way to dip between my legs. My head dropped back to him as he meant forward and kissed my neck as his fingers gently circled my clit.
"I love you, Marnie. You've got to hear me when I say it. I. Love. You" his fingers pushed inside me as he said his final words and I definitely felt like I was the only person he loved. I reached back and held him to me as my body was played perfectly by him. His fingers working magic I quickly built to orgasm. He held me to him as my knees gave and I nearly buckled.
I stopped myself from tipping by bracing my hand on the wall I front of us and he took my other hand from his hair and placed in front too. "Keep those there. Ok?" I nodded as he ticked his fingers down my back making me arch up towards him, he rubbed my ass close to him and I felt him, hard as rock behind me. "Um, I've not got a condom in here" he leant forward to my ear so I could hear.
"It's ok" we'd been using them this whole time, we'd not really found the right time to approach the conversation, but he knew I had an iud fitted; and for the first time in a while I totally trusted that he wasn't sleeping with anyone else.
"Thank fuck for that" I felt him smile against my skin as he kissed me and then stood up and gently filled me. "Gahhhd you feel so good" he called as he started slowly thrusting forward.
"Ahh yes, so fucking good" I turned around so I could he him looking sexy as sin, wet, muscles taught his hands holding on to my hips as he pumped into me, each time hitting that sweet spot.
His pace and force quickened and I turned back around to stop from falling over. "I'm yours. Don't ever question it again" he growled as my insides quaked. "I have you. I can't imagine ever being with some one else!" He thrust hard with each declaration, filling me to the delicious edge of pain and before I could answer I felt my pussy clamp around him and I came, shaking, gripping to to the wall the best I could as he held my hips hard to him and he came too. I felt his cock twitch deep and his come fill me. "Fuck that's so good" he said out of breath, still stood tall.
"Yeah it is!" I pushed up slightly from the wall and he leant forward moving my hair from my face he kissed my cheek.
"I love you, remember that. Only you!" he repeated again.
"I love you too. So much!"
