Excuse me// Larry Stylinson.

Sixteen.

"Yesterday passed, tomorrow does not yet exist, what matters is today, the present." Marc Levy

23 may 2017

8:07 am Zayn: I know I've been an idiot and I'm still one, but it's not all my fault.

8:08 am Zayn: And here's how I get into another subject, unintentionally. It is certain that I was looking through our old messages and I found the one I sent you for your birthday. That was probably the most honest and sweetest message (even if it sounds impossible from me) that I ever wrote.

8:08 am Zayn: "Good morning baby and happy birthday! Hmm..how could I start? Well, I just want to tell you that you are the one who makes me in time to really discover what love means. You are the one who gave his soul in my face to fix my heart, you're the one who gives me the strength to hope for the best. You are the one who makes me have no vain hopes. You have become the one for whom I live! You are not the key to my heart, you are my own heart! You offered me love without asking. I learned to live through you. You are the most wonderful person in my life and I hope you know that too! I would not give you in exchange for anyone else and nothing, you have become my World, so without you I would be drained of strength. I'm not the type to feel but I shared my feelings, emotions with you! My heart has been hurt many times, but I see that you can take care of it and heal it, get those sufferings out of it, and I, in return, do not know what I could give you .. With me you will never be alone, darling. I know you'll never let me down, and I also never will. I adore you enormously, and I am here to change your life for the better, to make you feel the thousands of "stars" as they move through every particle of your body. To love you as if my life depends on it and..apparently it really depends on it .. I love with all my heart the day I "dreamed" of you and we started talking, only that day our true story began . I adore you baby, for the way you make me love you even more. I never thought we would ever share these things..or that I will share them with anyone else ... and look I succeeded..and.. most importantly, I did it with you..and ... we will do more. I promise! I love you so much, and I hope damn well you have the most wonderful day! Happy birthday, baby! "

8:10 am Zayn: And then you remember? You told me you felt useless. Do you know what I told you?

8:11 am Zayn: "You are not useless. You are not like that at all, at least for me. Thanks to you I learned what happiness means .. love .. sadness .. desire .. I learned what it's like to be obsessed with the whole being of a person .. You showed me these things and many more, my dear .. You showed me that life is not only in dark colours .. you coloured me even the most distant and sad corner .. You proved to me that I can't live without you .. You made me obsessed with you. Your message of good morning..or good night, the short but significant ones..the messages in which I feel close to you .. You have become in a month what others do not become in years .... You have become the reason why I wake up in the morning .. for which I smile .. You are absolutely everything I have. You're my universe, honey ... and I wouldn't change that for anyone or anything ... I swear to you. It may sound pathetic, but I wanted you to know that. I wanted you to know that you are not useless. "

8:12 am Zayn: Now, a year after these messages, I want to confess to you, with my hand on my heart, that I was drunk when I wrote them.

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