Somehow Somewhere Someday

Hurting

Dear friend,

Tears ran down my face as I read the message he left on my facebook account.

"Ingat ka dyan huh? Mag-aral ka ng mabuti. Magpataba ka."

It took me 4 days. It took me 4 f***** days to finally admit to myself that no! I'm not okay. It took me that long to finally shed tears and to stop pretending that I'm okay. Yes! It took me that long to finally realize that no there is no turning back, that yes! the "forever" we once planned is now over.

I wanted this right? we wanted this. Then why am I crying like a retard now? Why does it hurt so much when I knew we only did what was right. It hurts because our love for each other wasnt enough for us to stay and it will never be.

hurting so much,

Sofie