𝚃𝚋𝚑𝚔 𝙾𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜 (𝚟𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛)

𝚒 𝚠𝚒𝚜𝚑 𝚒 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚘 (🥀)

(Amane)

angst cause why not? i love crying~

it might turn out pretty shitty so forgive me!!

this might have grammar mistakes and typos.

enjoy
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You walk side by side with Amane, your friend!.... well, not really. You like him alot, but you didn't have the courage to tell him since you don't want to sacrifice your friendship.

"Amane, you wanna hear what happened to me yesterday?" you asked in a cheerful manner, he hummed as a response. You began to tell him what happened, the both of you were laughing at your story

Until he stopped. You wondered why so you looked around and saw the girl from the gardening club. Amane was completely star strucked, his eyes were sparkling.

The girl noticed Amane, she then bowed politely and waved her hand before walking away. You stood there confused "Y/N" you hummed "i think im.."

"inlove"

Your eyes suddenly darken, you can feel your heart twitch. "oh? is that so?" you gave him the most fakest smile "good for you then!"

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You just arrived at school, it was very chilly, you don't know why. You walked up the staircase, the uneasiness never leaving your body.

You arrived in front of your classroom door, looking intensely at it "Y/N?" you then turned around to see Amane,

with the girl.

They were together, as if they new each other before. You just stood there, motionless. Unable to say something "O-Oh, Yashiro, this is Y/N." the girl bowed politely at you

But you were still standing, not moving.. "What are you doing here? you should go inside." Amane said, patting your shoulder as the two of them parted ways.

You gripped the end of your skirt, Tears was forming on your eyes. You quickly pull out your handkerchief and wipe them on your eyes as you entered the room.

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It was so sudden. They were already together. Everyone was so happy for them,, but you weren't. As soon as you heard that announcement, you kindly excused yourself to go to the bathroom

Unfortunately on the way, you bumped into Yashiro "Are you and Amane together..?" you suddenly asked, she blushed and looked away

"Yes."

You cried on one of the bathroom stalls. The fact that he didn't say anything to you affected you the most "Why is this happening..? do i even deserve this..?"

"Can't i just be happy..? am i really not that lovable?" you placed your hand on your chest "why the fuck are you even invented?!" you yelled, throwing punches on your chest

"Can you just go away?! he doesn't love you, so stop beating fast when he's around!" your sobs grew louder, and then stopped.

"i don't want to feel anymore..."

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You decided to transfer, because seeing him and Yashiro will just hurt your feelings more. Your parents was supportive on your decision and told you what makes you happy, makes them happy.

You cried every night, you just can't help but to let it all out. It was a very hard time, but now you think your alright.

You stopped thinking about them and put your attention to doing some stuffs you enjoy doing, like (Fave/Hobby)

You haven't heard of them, neither Yashiro and Amane..... but not until today. You went out with your friends and was eating at your favorite fastfood which was (Insert Fave FastFood)

As you guys were talking your phone starts vibrating, you glance on the notification. You dropped your fork on the table making your friends look at you "What's wrong?" you just shook your head and told them that it was nothing

But they forced their way on your phone and saw it "Amane wants to meet up with you?!" they said in disbelief "girl. don't go." one of them said "but what if it's important? it was sent 20 minutes ago too.. " you said

"Are you really sure you can meet him? after all what happened?" you sat there in silence "that's what i--" you stood up and grabbed your phone "hey! what about your drink?!" "you guys can have it!"

You walked outside and start heading on the location which he provided. the location was infront of your school, which was kinda near.

At the moment you got there you noticed the familiar choppy haired boy. You walked up to him, he has his hands in his pockets. He must be here waiting for too long "Hey." he greeted

"Hello" both of you awkwardly stood there  "so, how was your new school?" you hummed "it was ok, more bigger than ours" you slightly smiled

"Why did you left?" he asked, you can clearly hear the sadness in his voice "what?" "i was so shock, you didn't tell me you were transferring... i even tried to come and see you but your parents told me that you were away."

"So why? why?!" you eyes twitched, you stomped your way towards him "You wanna know why? huh?!" you raised your voice as tears formed your eyes

"Becau--Because i can't handle it!" you glared at him "i was so fucking weak that i don't wanna see you.. the both of you!" you gritted your teeth

"What are you talking about?" he asked "you mean me and Yashiro? what's wrong with that?!" he then raised his voice "don't tell me you liked m-"

"I DO LIKE YOU!"

You yelled, tears began escaping "i fucking like you okay?! you were just fucking blind!" you cried "do you know how long i kept this feelings of mine?"

Amane stood there, shock "but you're my friend.."  "exactly..! i know that im only your friend!"

"Hiding this feelings was hard enough, and now forcing myself to act like your relationship with Yashiro doesn't affect me is just.... it felt like torture"

"Suffering the consequences since i chose to let you be happy.... even though im dying." you looked up at his guilty eyes "because i like you... i like you Amane.." you smiled weakly "sometimes i wish i were Yashiro..i wish i was the one you loved"

Author-chan: "I like suffering😭✨"