all we can do is keep breathing || larry s.

quick disclaimers, please read!!

all credit goes to thealmightyavocado on archiveofourown!!

THE SPOTIFY PLAYLIST FOR THE BOOK IS IN MY BIO!!! <3

notes by author:

hello loves! i'm back at it again with another heartbreaking angsty fic. basically anything i write that starts with the word "all" is not going to be the lightest read. but if you are willing i'd love for you to go on this journey with me! starting with a super loooong note about warnings and such:

this story is inspired by a lot of very real things, but i'd say it's definitely from a very genuine, honest place. it's close to my heart and i think it's probably the most challenging thing i've ever written emotionally. i've had the overall concept of it for awhile now and i've wrestled with it for quite some time so i'm finally just gonna do it.

ok so you know how in greys anatomy certain scenes are amplified by the music? the show is known for it and i think it truly makes the story feel more emotional. so because of that, i'm doing something new, that kind of forced me to break into a different element of writing. i'm lining this fic with a soundtrack so whenever you see this ♫ cute music note icon, that means there's a track to go with that scene. the track might express an underlying opinion of one character or multiple characters at once or it may just enhance the emotional aspect of the scene in some way, but I'll leave that up to you to decode. of course, there is not a song for every single scene because that would be way too much and I'm obviously not going to force you to listen to them while you read, especially since many people can't read with noise, but it's there for you if you like.

for reference the POV switches from louis to harry often to get a full understanding of the story. You should be able to tell whose POV is whose, but for clarity's sake i've indicated the switches as the scene markers. for louis: |☤| And for harry: |✚|

as for extra warnings, terminal medical illnesses and procedures are repeatedly described within a hospital setting. i tried to make it as accurate and real as possible and i have a degree in biomedical science and i work in a hospital but i definitely still could have made a mistake or two. there is also death in this story, but neither harry nor louis die, nor are either of them sick. there is heavy grief and mourning and depression and generally sad themes. word to the wise, no matter how light and normal it may seem at times throughout the story, do not get too comfortable because it most likely won't stay that way. but at the same time, there are lighter parts in place to offset some of the heavy.

ok, I think that pretty much covers it, 500000 words later lol. As always feel free to come to me with any questions or concerns you might have, im always up for a chat! :)) @avocadolouie

i really ripped my own heart out for this one, i hope you're able to not only enjoy it, but get something real out of it.

love you all!
lex. x.