So there i was in class thinking about ethan again and he and me having to work together for the assignment and the posibility that he might have a crush on me and that i might have fallen for him but i know he doesnt love me and neither do i at least thats what i tell my mind everyday to get to try and forget him but it doesnt work cause everyday i start thinking of him more and more and it gets worse every time he passes me by.
It usually strucks me like lightning but i never let it get to me cause i know boys are a waste of time and i shouldnt be wasting my time on boys cause all they ever do is cause you troubles and no guy is worth a run to detention in my school trust me, ive checked them all you might think im crazy but i know what im talking about and what im saying.
Look at it this way boys are like tigers they tear and scratch everything away without caring in this case your heart, thats why i never hang around boys cause im scared of getting my heart broken again by a boy.
Whos that boy you ask Miller James White captain of the Football team at Bayside Creek high, home of the lions. He was sweet at first, thats what made me think he was into me but then i realized he wasnt he just wanted to get with me so he could tell everyone he slept with me i was so embarassed i didnt wanted to go to school.
I tried telling him i wasnt sure about sleeping with him and he told me it was ok that he was gonna make sure that nothing happened to me so for a minute there i believed him, with him i felt safe so i let go
I felt so embarrassed when he told everyone we slept together that i tried to convince my mom into doing online school and she told me she couldnt pay for it, then i tried to convinced her into letting me stay home for at least 2 weeks and she said no too.
He told everyone it was my decision to sleep with him when it obviously wasnt thats the thing about guys they can make up lies and still get an applause for it, how come guys get an applause when they sleep with girls but when a girl sleeps with a guy she gets teased and gets called a slut i dont get it? When is equality gonna be a thing in the usa? Apparently never, cause a guy has more self worth so thats why its easy for a guy to trick a girl into sleeping with him, its always the same thing he promises her nothings gonna happen that he wont tell anybody and then he goes and tells the whole school.
Ive learned that the hard way ever since miller white tricked me and played with my heart, everyone thought i was a slut for sleeping with him but i didnt chose it he tricked me, thats the one thing boys are good at tricking people and tricking girls into sleeping with them
So ever since then ive always been afraid of a boy touching me or looking at me or talking to me, cause i always think theyre gonna do something to me. I never told my mom about miller cause i was scared i didnt know what to do at that time so i decided not to tell anyone not even chanelle
Thats the thing about boys they hit you when you least expect it, when your talking to a boy and youre like confident with him and stuff thats when he goes the other way around and breaks your heart and abuses you but theres nothing you can do about it cause even if you tried nothing will work, nothing will get you out of that moment and to be honest i kinda liked that one on one moment with miller it made me feel like i was loved by a guy for a second, but i will admit me sleeping with him was the best thing that ever happened to me wether i get called a slut or not it doesnt matter to me anymore from now on im gonna let go and stop being so shy and scared of everything, im gonna be a completly different person and try new things.
My momma always used to tell me that im much better than the kids who bully me and that i shouldnt let them get to me and i always used to respond what if they always win what happens then? And then my momma would say, dont let them win youre better than that just hold your head up high and everything will be alright
And all these years everytime im having a bad day i remember my mommas words and how she used to tell me that those kids probably have it worst at home so thats why they hurt others, to make themselves feel better and forget everything thats happening at home, all they ever want is someone to be there for them someone to tell them they care and will be there for them
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Brokenhearted
RomanceEthan was your typical bad boy, a player, the one who skipped school, never did his homework or would forget about it. I am your typical average nice girl. We're different you say, different but at the same time the same.
