Exiled

A Lot of things change (Jin)

A couple months have passed, Jungkook is almost done with his album, he's worked so hard on it. I also found out that Jimin was offered a job in the states with a huge modelling agency. He wants Yoongi to pick up and go with him but he cant and Jimin knows that. Yoongi's life and work are here, he has to many clients to just up and move. Yoongi told me that Jungkook is going on a huge tour to promote his album, I'm so proud of him but at the same time I am terrified. I can feel it in my soul that this is the beginning of the end for us, to much time away, to many sleepless nights wondering what he is doing. I know it sounds like I don't trust him, I do, but I also understand that he is young and gorgeous and an entertainer. He will get a lot of offers and wont be able to turn them all down. He says he wants to try to make it work, and that we will visit every chance we get, but I have stopped holding my breath and now I just wait for the heart break. The good thing is I am more prepared for it this time, so hopefully it wont hit me to hard. Tae texted, he wants to meet with me and talk, that's where I am headed now. I walk into the coffee shop and see him waiting for me, he stands, "May I hug you?" I nod and we hug, he doesn't even feel at all familiar anymore, he used to feel like home. "What can I order for you?" "Oh, just a coffee with cream and sugar, thank you." He orders at the counter and waits for his name to be called, "here you go." "How have you been Tae?" "Truth? Miserable, I miss you, even after all this time, I miss the hell out of you." "Jin I wanted to explain why I did what I did, and why I treated you like I did." "I'm not looking for forgiveness, I know I don't deserve that." He proceeded to tell me about his father and threatening to disbar him, how he tried over and over to date multiple women that his father has set him up with, and how he just couldn't. "I'm sorry you had to go thru all that Tae, it must have hurt you to have your father treat you in such a bad way", I say with a hint of sarcasm. "I know I hurt you, terribly." "I will never be able to undo that", Tae said.  "No, you wont. You ripped my heart out, you made me fool. You watched as my whole world burned down, you sunk my ship Tae and then you just let me drown", the tears start. "I've felt heartbreak first hand because of you, and you didn't care, knowing I have never felt pain like that before". "You were my first everything, you should be proud that you were my first failure, too." "It wasn't your failure Jin, it was mine, I was the shallow one. "We can never be again, Tae." "I never once thought the love we had for each other was ever secondary to money and job title." Good-Bye Taehyung. The tears wouldn't stop, between Tae and thinking about Jungkook and Jimin leaving everything is crashing down. I grab my phone, "please come get me, I'm in front of our coffee shop." It only took him minutes and he was there, "Jin babe, what happened." I met with Tae, I wasn't as strong as I thought, Yoongi. "Come on, Ill take you home." The drive was quiet until, "Yoongi, are you letting Jimin go?" I look at him, "I am Jin, but we are okay. We are splitting on good terms, no hard feelings. He has his dreams I have mine." Will you let me stay with you after they leave?" "You always have a place with me Jinnie", he grabs my hand. I intertwine our fingers, "I'm going to need you ya know, because Jungkook and I wont last." He wants to try, but I know better, Ill let him think that this will work, just so he can say he tried. "Im so sorry Jin, for everything." "What are you apologizing for?" "I set you up with both of them, and they both broke your heart", he says upset. "Yah!! Yoongi, you didn't know, next time set me up with someone who you know for a fact will never hurt me, huh?" He blushed, "I'll try." When we got back to the apartment, I ran to Jimin and hugged him tight. "I hate you for leaving me." Jimin buried his face in my neck, "Jinnie," he said crying. "I need you to do me a favor." "Anything Jiminie." "Take care of Yoongi" "You know I will, Jimin." The look in his eye makes me feel like he means something by that statement. "I love you, Jinnie" "I love you, Jiminie" We hugged for a long time, and just like that he was gone. I drug myself to my room and passed out. I woke up in the morning to Jungkook laying with me, wrapped around me like a little Koala. "The album is done Jinnie", the tears started again. "I'm so proud of you Kookie." "Why the tears love?" "Because you will leave soon, and I don't want you to stop living your life because of me." "I told you that I want to try, I love you." "You are the best thing to happen to me." "Me too Jungkook, you have become my whole world, but please, for me ok?" We kissed, and I fell asleep in his arms, and just like that he was gone.