Dream Diary

Dating History (for reference lol)

Charlotte ~ we were on and off in my seventh grade year bc I wasn't out yet and scared, but I would miss her and think that it meant I needed her back. We're chill now I think. (I met her mom and grandma)

Adam ~ my either grade year, we got together February 20th, 2019 and I met his dad. Ihonestly my best relationship, he's the only guy that never asked to see my body ( but we still sent stuff bc why not lol) and we talked about marriage and kids and shit. He's been through a lot and lost his aunt on St. Patty's day, it was his closest member in his family, so he gets really down on that day. He also has schizophrenia, and an unusual fear of clowns. We broke up before my freshman year, like during the summer, and we got back together, it was my fault and I apologized and we moved passed it. But then Nick (the one in the first chapter) asked me out and I couldn't say no (I had trouble with that my whole freshman year, but now I'm more confident and don't let people walk over me). The first time nick broke up with me, I went back to Adam and it was magical and I felt great about my self, but nick kept coming back and I kept saying yes (I was a dumb bitch a year ago, but we love character development) then when nick finally left me alone, I got scarred and insecure and self sabotaged and cheated on Adam. I don't think I'll ever stop missing him

Aidan - the guy I cheated with, but not really, everyone thought we were together, even him but I never actually felt much towards him

Nick - just a little timeline. He initially broke up with me like a few weeks before thanksgiving and a month later got back. Then broke up. (I had just gotten back with Adam that day, and we were both very happy, but nick struck and I had to crunch Adam) the cycle continued till like March (the start of corona time) we got sent home we talked during that but I told him to eff off and he did

Jase ~ it was a nice go, and he seemed so innocent, but he just used me too. Looks are very deceiving. He said he broke up with me bc of his parents but I know that's a lie. (We lasted 5 months)

Then last weeks that's when nick texted me about getting together and now we're in the present. For most of the things I put on here, it won't have a specific time period (like none of the dreams will, unless I write it) I just wanted y'all to get a feel for when all this bs took place. (Also my freshman year I did color guard and nick and Charlotte are in band. Nick texted me the day after band camp and lied and said he had a crush on me the whole time lol; also since I'm virtual I can't do any of it this semester). ❤️