Lose

I can see it now, have to show you how
The funny thing is that we couldn't have it any other way
Still it kills me when we say
All we've been through
All the songs that I've sung for you
We both know I'm gonna lose you
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Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't exist. Like I shouldn't be alive. Like I shouldn't be with the girl of my dreams. Like I'm a burden to her.
But when I think of her, I cant stand to be away from her.
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I hate to be alone
There comes a time to reap what you've sewn
All we've been through
All the songs that I've sung for you
We both know I'm gonna lose you
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I need her. I wouldn't be here if she wasn't here.
She's why I wake up in the morning, to see her grinning, and ruffling my hair, calling me 'big idiot.'
She's why I haven't pulled a gun on myself, and she's the reason why I'd rather think about a girl than think about suicide. She's why all my weird-ass mental issues don't get me down. She's the reason why I'm madly in love with someone who isn't me. ________________________
Let's think of all the good times
Instead of wish we could times
So much better that way
This is what I ask for
This is what I deserve
Be careful what you ask for
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I always wanted to be with her. But I cant stop thinking about the future, and what it's gonna sound like when my heart shatters. I don't deserve a girl like her. Sometimes I wanna break up with her, because she deserves a man who's normal. She deserves a human. She deserves a man who's less awkward. But I cant. I cant do it. It's selfish, but I need her. I really need her. I love her. And I want to be with her until the end of time, and even if she needs someone better...
I cant just forget about all the time we've been together.
And If we're going to stay together, I'll become the guy she needs. I'll become the guy she loves.
Even if it means struggling against paranoia, fear, anticipation...
I won't let myself lose her.