Emotions Through a Thousand Words

Knowing You are in Love

5-17-20

It started out just like any other crush. I became a little obsessed with him during the beginning -like everyone does when they first have a crush on someone. Then I started to notice things about him -the little things- and realized that I actually genuinely liked him. Shortly after realizing I liked him, the school year ended and I thought about him all summer. Coming back to school after thinking about him all summer led me to be a little obsessive again because it was the start of the new [school] year.

Time went on and I noticed even more than before. I began to pinpoint certain things that I really liked about him but I still didn't know why exactly I liked him. I started to like more than just his face and hair -his looks. I fell in love with all of him. His whole personality and the way he handles things. How smart he is, how utterly kind he is. I, honestly, probably never would've guessed just how kind he actually is if I hadn't had the interactions with him that I did. I love the way he just sits and listens to you while you talk because he's genuinely interested. I love the way he treats people even if he's not too fond of them. I think that's when I officially fell -when I started actually interacting with him and having brief conversations with him. That's when I began to realize just how much I love him and just how hard I fell for him.

I'd thought I fell way before then but I don't think that was accurate. I only really officially fell towards the middle or end of February. Not December, or whenever I thought it was. I fell when I started getting to know him instead of assuming I knew him just from observation and the fact that I'm not upset that he doesn't like me back and that I really just want him to be happy because he doesn't always look it proves that.