It's hard

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What sucks about being me I'm not like everybody else and then have an awesome life amazing parents two bratty sibling. My life is great blonde hair blue eyes but, since the incident I don't know if my life's so perfect anymore. Ok so explain what happened me and a couple friends were trying to have fun I got dared to go in the back of one of my friends trucks stand up let it go over speed bump. I don't know what you're probably thinking, but stupid and that must have been the most stupidest thing I've ever done but I was with friends I thought they didn't do with your call me a chicken I don't want that to happen. So I did it I thought it wouldn't be so bad you know me fall off the back of the truck or even fall towards the window. But that didn't happen instead as you're going over the speed bump had a motorcycle I wasn't thinking of it and as they went over the speed bump thats has one up I jumped I remember nothing after that maybe a little bit, I remember hitting the ground my eyes started to roll back to my head hearing the screams of my friends reaching up touching my head only to realize it was bleeding. I don't even know what happened after that I was so concerned about me losing friends if I didn't do stupid dare I thought I lost my life. The next morning I woke up in the hospital. Bands jizz on my head my arm acast on my left leg I remember touching my head and feeling as if someone took sledgehammer and slammed down as hard as they could on their head so my friends remember the look on on Ash's face he wasn't there with us that night, but when you heard about me he ran to the hospital to check on me he told me how stupid I was for doing it and that I should have just stayed home or even if I would have stayed with my friends not do that there I remember the exact words that came out of his mouth" why would you do that no stupid dare is worth risking your life you could have died" I thought after that night seeing the pure shock ashes eyes made me scared. Made me scared that I might lose the person who cares most for me after that when I went into school is having the same desk have the same backpack did my hair and makeup the same way but my insides difference not in a weird grossy way but, I felt like I could do more then just stand in a pair of shorts and a tank top in the back of a pickup truck jumping over speed bump. Ash came up to me he put his hand on my face. Was cold but it felt so warm to me. I looked into his eyes he looked in a mine. I feel so bad for making him worried he leaned in I lean forward our lips met Midway his lips were so soft on mine as we came out from a kiss it looked at them and I asked him why. He said it was supposed to be a good luck charm the next time I do something stupid I should just call him first. Me feeling different might not be a bad thing I will no longer be the same girl you walk by in class nor the same girl you sit next to you in chemistry. I will no longer be Maridel but, I'll that girl with blonde hair, blue eyes and a heart so big