Happily Desolated

Light rays of Love

A memory of you
Monochromatic and turning blue
My heart's like a superglue
How can I breathe,
When I still cling to you?

That moment you said "Hi"
You made my mind fly
Your face under my brain's interpretation
Like a diamond, it develops total internal reflection

We talked more, and I swear you annoyed me
But still curios of your identity,
We're blocked by internet
But your word's like a magnet
And my heart is your target
While your face is like a luminous body
Shining brightly
I'm absorbing your light quickly

In the break of twilight
Engulfed by the dark night
I waited for you under the streetlight
Thinking of your absence sent me fright
So I almost leaped when you're insight
Heartbeat's fast as the speed of light

At first our talk is boring
But soon it started igniting
In your face I just keep staring
You are real! I'm not daydreaming!

Might be to exagge
But your beauty's extremely large
I even though you're just a mirage

Days went busy
And it's getting heavy
Words went clumsy
I lost my time for you dearly
Scared we'll end up dreadfully
So I wanna say sorry
You said you'll meet me

We both tore
In the cold seashore
It's a dazzling night
Especially when you hold me tight
You sing a song
And I go along
Feelings were getting strong

You told me your story
I feel your misery
It made feelings grow strongly

Closer and closer
And it grows further
However we can't be together
For study first before any matters
This is asymptotic
And it makes me frantic
Will I end up lunatic?

I want to tell you something
But the world change everything
A pandemic invades living
It's like destiny's creating our ending

Everything falls
With a post on your wall
You and a random girl
Very happy together
Should I start complaining?
Should I do something?
But why would I?
we're nothing,
But seems like I lost everything

For when you passed another medium

You gained a brighter color spectrum
Like stupid rays my feelings bent
For I thought our feelings were apparent

Never thought my feelings will undergo a painful dispersion
Why do I feel like I'm under your deception?

If all that you show were just optical illusion?

I want us together
But you look happier
I don't wanna love anymore
Loving myself is better
There's no such thing as forever
Because if you're hurt
You can't find a pain reliever.

I thought we feel the same
But I'm loving alone, what a shame,
I thought the angle of incident's equal to reflection
But what I saw is not you
It's just your refraction.

Addition:

I skip your post
And I scrolled further
I saw a meme falter
It says
"Remember my dear fella,
Chinat ka lang pero di jinowa
Pinagtagpo pero di tinadhana

Charot

💜