i'm Psycho on the Low-low

~*~ Stoned Sex~*~

" sorry for the mess, my brother is going through some stuff."

He walks in, scanning the room.  

" no worries, I have brothers who are the same."

I smile and go to my cabinet. Opening it, I spot my weed and I giggle to myself.

" we about to get stoned Morgan."

He looks at me nervously as I start rolling.

" I use this as a coping skill, to you know.. help me with all the stuff I've been through. I remember when I first smoked., I was about 15 and let me tell you, I was tripping over the weirdest shit."

Lighting the blunt,  Morgan studies me once again and I quickly pass it to him.   " smoke it like a cigarette."

He nods and inhaled deeply. Not long after, he coughs and his face turned red making me laugh.

" wow, I feel weird, is that normal?"

He says passing me the blunt. 

" your gonna feel more weird in a little bit."

I inhale deeply and blow out the smoke, calming my nerves. It's been a crazy night and if I didn't meet Morgan, I would of done something very stupid. 

We both finished the blunt, and I was completely calm and very drunk as well.  Morgan was having a great time talking to me. Ever since he got high with me, he's been talking more about himself and I loved it.  I don't see us ever being in a relationship but I do see us being friends. 

" your my new smoke buddy." I say

Morgan faces me, eyes low and said

" that would be very nice.

I took this opportunity to look at Morgan and I could tell he was starting to relax from the weed.  I never had a smoking buddy cause everyone said I smoked to much and they couldn't keep up with me.  They were a bunch of pussy's, that's what they were.  Well they still are but I don't talk to them anymore

Taking one last puff, I stand up to get another blunt.  My body felt on fire and I loved it. 

" we can use some music"

I grab my speaker and play  sweater weather by the Neighborhood. 

My body swayed to the music and I laughed to myself.  This was a good little distraction.

Getting drunk and high with Morgan.  Helped with my crazy anxiety and emotions. 

Continuing to dance, I roll the second blunt and sing along.  " it's too cold for you here.."

Drying the blunt with my lighter, I look up at Morgan.   He was just laying there, looking at the ceiling.  

" you good dude?"

He faced me as I light the blunt. 

" I'm happy"

Hearing that, made me honestly want to cry cause I felt that and he needed someone like me.

And I needed someone like him.

" here."

I blow out the smoke and pass the blunt to him. 

" thank you"

I feel his other hand grab my waist and I swallow. 

Taking a small hit, he doesn't take his eyes off me. 

" um" a giggle escapes me and I grab the blunt. 

" don't do that."

I take a big hit and blow it out awkwardly.   I was so high that I couldn't erase the smile that was on my face.

" what?"  He says

" I'm high, that's what." 

Another giggle escapes me and i play another song on the speaker. 

" this songs dope!"

Blunt in mouth, I sway my hips to the music.

" you to fine to be laying in bed alone.."

I pass the blunt and see that Morgan's head was now nodding to the beat.

" hurry the blunts almost out." I giggle. 

Morgan stands up and grabs the blunt just to set it down on the ash stray.

I got quiet and I knew what I had to say or I would of been fucked over like the rest.

" I really hope your not one of those cute guys who doesn't like me cause I smoke a lot. "

I say, hands on my hips as I stare up at him. 

The song finally ended and I was starting to feel really uncomfortable with him watching me.

I see his head lean in and I knew exactly what was going to happen.

Stoned Sex...