the sentiment stays the same.
however, it cannot be considered a blessing anymore.
it is now called a curse.
a curse which pulls me down
and makes me cry.
it makes me feel disgusted and
i just want to rip it apart
make sure it's gone
even if i die
i hate hate hate hate it
so much
i look at it and cry
i feel myself succumbing to the same thing others succumb to
i cry even harder
i am disappointed
how the mighty have fallen
once thinking they would never ever fall to the enemy
now defeated and conquered
i see the curse
i draw crosses across it
it doesn't help
i still cry and feel weak and disappointed and useless
everything comes crashing down
i don't want to live like this
i don't want to feel like this
take me away
get me away from this curse
please
erase me from this world
