wellthatsucks

death did them apart

SM, 

My father passed away a few months ago, and it's been hard on me and my family. Our dad was the glue to our family. He spent time with each and one of us, and got to know what we like, who we like, the sports we're interested in and what we want to be when we're older. I'm not saying our mother isn't like that, we love her very much also. She's our best friend, but since dad died, it's like a part of her died as well. She doesn't do much of anything, anymore. It's like she's become an empty shell of herself. I thought that time was supposed to heal those hurt. 

I'm not married, I don't have a partner, I never have. So maybe I just don't understand how she feels? But I'm still young, and I know to sounds selfish of me, but I would have liked to live my own life you know? However, now I've become the second parent in a family of five. I work, to help with the bills, I take the kids to school, drive them to work, pay for the school lunches. It's like I've become him you know? He never taught me how to be a parent though. He taught me a lot of things, but never that.

So, any advice?

- deathdidthemapart