KIDNAPPED BY PAYTON MOORMEIER🤍⛓

part6- my past life sucks

Chloes pov (thats new)

After ashlynn left it got kinda awkward so payton's ended the meeting and i'm now talking to jackson about tonight's meeting.

jax- so why were you and ashlynn so quiet earlier after you got the chip

c- oh it's nothing important but that reminds me that i need to go talk to her i'll be back in a few mintutes

Paytons pov (also very new)

I cannot believe angel just did that infront of everyone but what's worse is that she's not wrong. But the worse part is no one in the mafia world can know i have a soft spot for her. If someone finds out that puts her in danger and i'd go crazy if anything ever happened to her.

Ashlynns pov

I had just got done taking a shower and washing my hair when chloe walked thru my door with a purpose.

c- hey we need to talk

a- is this about earlier

c- yes what did you mean by i can't loose you too

a- i can't loose you okay i've already lost the most important person in my life and i can't not have you in my life. you were always here for me and i wanna keep it that way.

c- yeah but did you really have to kill him like that you could've warned me or something

a- well i'm just so sorry that i was trying to protect you

c- it's not that ITS JUST THE FACT THAT YOU DID IT TO EASY. YOU DIDNT EVEN HESITATE

a- YEAH SO WHAT I DIDNT HESITATE IF I DID WE BOTH COULD HAVE BEEN DEAD WHAT PART OF THAT DONT YOU UNDERSTAND

c- I UNDERSTAND IT JUST FINE BUT ASHLYNN YOU CANT BLAME EVERYTHING ON HER DEATH. I KNOW THAT SHE MEANT A LOT TO YOU BUT COME ONE SHE ISNT HERE ANYMORE

a- DONT YOU THINK I FUCKING KNOW THAT SHE ISNT HERE. I WAKE UP EVERYDAY THINKING ABOUT IT. AND YEAH I DO BLAME A LOT OF THE SHIT I DO ON HER BUT THATS CUZ ITS HER FAULT AS MUCH AS I HATE TO SAY IT IT IS! IM FUCKING FUCKED UP OKAY AND YOU KNOW I AM. AND YES IK THAT YOUVE BEEN THRU SOME SHIT AND I HATE COMPARING US BUT IVE BEEN THRU WAY MORE. AND THE FACT THAT YOU KNOW ALL OF IT AND YOUR SAYING THAT REALLY FUCKING HURTS!

c- i'm sorry ash-

a- YOU SHOULD BE YOU, REALLY FUCKING SHOULD I TELL YOU EVERYTHING OR ATLEAST TRY TO. HERES SOMETHING IK FOR A FACT YOU DIDNT KNOW I BET YOU DIDNT KNOW THAT I KEPT TRACK OF HOW LONG SHES BEEN GONE FOR SINCE THAT DAY IT HAPPENED, I BET YOU DIDNT KNOW THAT I WOULD STAY UP LATE AT NIGHT 4 OR 5 TIMES A WEEK SOBBING ABOUT IT CRYING TO NOT FUCKING LIVE AND BE WITH HER. CRYING TO MAKE SURE I WOULDNT LASH OUT ON ANYONE THE NEXT DAY BECAUSE I COULDNT HOLD IN HOW I FELT. CRYING SO THAT I WOULDNT TRY TO CUT. I BET YOU DIDNT KNOW I CRYED MYSELF TO SLEEP THAT NIGHT BECAUSE IT HAD FINALLY HIT ME THAT SHE WOULDNT BE THERE FOR MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY. DID YOU KNOW HOW BAD MY FUCKING ANZIETY GOT FUCK NO BECAUSE I TOUGHT MYSELF TO HIND THAT SHIT SO THAT I COULD STOP PEOPLE FROM TELLING ME THAT IVE CHANGED AND WASNT THE SAME ASHLYNN I WAS. PEOPLE FUCKING CHANGE IVE CHANGED. I TRY TO NOT SHOW IT CUZ I WANNA BE HAPPY AGAIN. DO YOU THINK I WANNA BE LIKE THIS. MY PAST LIFE SUCKS OKAY! it sucks but i can't change it okay i try, i try so fucking hard. musics the only thing that helps

c- is that why you keep you airpods in 24\7

a- yes it helps a lot keeps me destracted and helps me stop thinking. all i ever do is think

c- about what

a- funny you ask that. it's like every thought possible rushes thru my head but i reconize them all never staying on one thought for too long. buts it fine i'll find a way to cope other than music so that i can't hear every thing around me i told myself

c- was that why you started drinking

a- yeah it felt good really good my body would feel kinda numb but i could still move my mind would slow down so that was plus the only thing i was worried about was chugging the next i eventually got so good at the games it only took three or four and i'd get drunk but never blackout i wouldn't let myself get that way anyway. But i guess that best part was not feeling anything the next day

c- what do you mean you never got a hang over

a- yeah i never got one of those never felt groggy or got a head ache i felt normal and continued my day as normal wishing i got that small high back.

c- i'm really sorry ashlynn i didn't mean to make you mad or anything or sad i just wanted to know why you killed that dude i feel so bad

a- no chloe i should have said something i wasn't thinking and sorta just went for it

c- so are we good

a- ofc i could never stay mad at you for that long

c- okay can we watch a movie

a- yeah pic one i'm just-

...what the fuck

HI GUYS I WANTED THIS ONE TO BE A LIL SPICY 🥵 SO YEAH AND SORRY TO LEAVE YA ONA CLIFF HANGER PROBS GONNA POST AFRER THIS CUZ I FEEL LIKE IT OKAY BUT LOVE😸🤍✌️