Actually I Choose You (BECHLOE AU)

Chapter 4

A/N: Surprise. I kinda dug myself into a hole with this one. I've always enjoyed writing angst but sometimes it takes a toll on me. This chapter I think is 89% angst. You've been warned.

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"Is this really how it is when it comes to love? Do we really have to hurt too?" Chloe breaks the silence.

"I guess if we get hurt along the way then so be it. It's just a part of loving someone."

"Why do we hurt the people we love?"

Beca didn't have an answer for that.

"Why does the hurting always have to come with loving you?" Chloe continued.

"I never meant to hurt you. I know I did and I chose to do it. And to this day I will never understand the choices I made but I never wanted to hurt you."

Beca drops her laptop and sits facing Chloe. "If that scares you so much, don't you want to be brave? Let's be brave together Chlo."

"I'm so scared Bec." Chloe turns to face her for the first time.

2 weeks before...

Chloe was running to her car in the hospital parking lot. Her shift officially ended a few hours ago but she couldn't leave her last patient until the relieving doctor arrived. Jamie was playing his first soccer game of the season this morning and she knew she was already late since Chicago has stopped responding, which only means the game's most probably started.

She unlocked her car and threw all her stuff in the passenger seat before going in.

"Fuck fuck fuck." Chloe mutters to herself as she tucks strands of hair behind her ears and tries to stick her key in the ignition.

It was midmorning on a Saturday. Her original plan was to go home first and have a decent shower but it was unusually busy this morning and she was already running late so she decided to go straight to the venue.

She was lucky enough to find a park and she saw Chicago right away on the second row of the bleachers with an empty spot next to him.

"You're late." Chicago says as soon as she sat down.

"I know I know. What'd I miss? Is it the second half already?" Chloe was slightly out of breath. She couldn't believe she actually made it.

"Not much. They're down 1. It's just the first half and he's been looking for you." Chicago points out to where Jamie was.

As if on cue, Jamie looks to where they were sitting and flashed them the biggest smile when he saw Chloe was already there before getting his game face back on.

Chicago and Chloe waved back like the proud parents that they were.

"I don't think he minds very much that I'm late." Chloe smirked at Chicago. She totally thinks she got away being late. The last time she was late she had to make it up to Jamie by watching his favourite movie of all time with him.

"Oh just you wait til after when we get home."

"I swear to god, I can't watch the fox and the hound again, I feel like I'm traumatizing him just by ugly crying in front of him every single time we watch it. I can't with that movie. It just breaks me." Chloe pleads.

Chicago couldn't stop laughing cause it was true. It was sad but it was true. Oddly enough, it's Jamie's favourite film and he's watched it about a hundred times and usually when Chloe owes him one, he makes her watch it with him.

"If it were up to me, I wouldn't want my kid to be around that, just saying." Chloe continued.

"You'd think by now you know the movie so well that you won't cry to it anymore."