espresso shots (on going)

Lie

carter's pov

the next day, i woke up with a piercing headache- the sun hitting my skin. i opened my eyes and looked around, taking in the unfamiliar place around me. where the fuck am i? i thought to myself. that's when i smelled something coming from somewhere. despite of the pounding headache im feeling, i got up and followed the smell. i saw a figure cooking at the kitchen, humming to herself. sabrina, im at sabrina's place.

"uh, hey" i cleared my throat while sabrina jumped from my sudden remark.

"hey ms carter! how are you feeling?"

"i told u to just call me carter"

"oh right, so how are you feeling carter?" she smiled, showing her teeth and her dimples. That to me, earned a smile too- liftinh up my mood despite of my headache.

"im good! just experiencing a lil headache but overall, im good" i smiled.

"hm-hm?" she said, letting go of the spatula she was holding from cooking and then walking to a drawer, taking out what seems to be a medicine. She got some water and handed them to me.

"here, this should help" she said, smiling.

i drank it and put the water down.

"soooo, care to explain why you ended up knocked out yesterday?" she said, making me blush in embarrassment.

"uhh, elise brought some alcohol to the cafe, she said its supposed to give me a break" i replied.

"why, is everything okay?"

"i guess? i just broke up w my toxic gf- i mean, ex gf so there's that"

"but you're okay right?" she said suddenly holding my hand. I was about to say something when we smelled something burning.

"oh my gosh the bacon!" sabrina exclaimed. She panicked and turned off the stove while i laugh my ass off, i can't believe she just burned the bacon!

we ate the burned bacon. Sabrina let me borrow some clothes- jeans, pair of socks and the 1975 band shirt. I didn't know she listens to that band, i love that band! I changed at sabrina's bathroom, when i went out, i saw her drinking a medicine, hmm maybe her head hurts too. i said to my self.

we went outside and i noticed that she used my car to get here, maybe bc her car is still broken.

"hey are you okay? if you're not feeling well, you can stay at home."

"huh? im totally fine, why'd you ask?"

"i saw u drink a medicine earlier"

she tensed up suddenly, i didn't quite understand why. I mean, it's just a medicine- right?

"oh, that's just nothing- im fine" she forced a smile.

i just nodded, confused. But i shook it off.

sabrina's pov

lying. Something i do a lot, not bc i want to but bc i need to. Some things are better left unsaid right?

i lied again today, to ms carter. I guess she saw me drinking my anti psychotics, for depression. She can't know, i need the job. I just need to keep hiding, im pretty sure that it's no big deal to her.

We arrived at the cafe and cleaned. After a while, we opened the cafe and customers started coming in. I noticed that ms carter kept looking at me from time to time and it made me pretty uncomfortable. I hope she isn't suspecting something bad.

its saturday and elise didnt go to work today, so its just me and ms carter. It's hard to work when there's only the two of us. Us vs the countless customers that comes in.

we closed the restaurant for lunch today, we ate pesto.

"so when are your parents coming back?" ms carter said

if it wasnt for me, they're probably alive right now.

"probably later, i don't really know"

they aren't coming back.

everything suddenly became hazy, i couldn't feel anything even physically. And suddenly, i was desperate to feel.

I looked at ms carter and she was looking at me, worried, prolly bc everything abt me is off.

"are you okay? i told u, u should have stayed at home today" ms carter said.

i couldn't breath, i was hyperventilating. Ms carter got up and hugged me.

"hey shh it's okay, its okay match my breathing" she said. "it's okay, im here now." she waited for me to calm down and got me some water.

she looks at me intently, " u can tell me anything, okay?"

i was so desperate to feel. i want to feel.

to feel

to feel

to feel

so i got up and kissed her, she was shocked at first but she kissed me back. It wasn't passionate, it was hungry and longing but it made me feel, atleast a bit for a long time.

i broke the kiss and looked at her, her eyes were gleaming. We smiled to each other and laughed.

"what was that?" she asked.

"that was a kiss, can't you tell?" we laughed but then she suddenly got serious.

"but that was nothing, right?" she said.

"take it whatever you wanna take it" i said.

"oh, so friends?" she held out a hand and i shook it.

"friends"

im gonna be fucked.