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(Triggers: Wholesomeness to the max)
Date: Sept. 7, 2020

I smiled a genuine smile that day. Why? It's simple, of course. On that day, I was surrounded by the people I truly care about. All the people that have always been there for me, and that are beautiful/handsome/snazzy in their own unique ways. I wouldn't trade any of them for the world. But who are these people, you might ask. Well, let me tell you about them.

With medium length dusty hair that I know they want to cut off, the first person I'll describe to you is one of my best friends. He's the best- he gets so many of my jokes, and although I'm often told to shut up by him, I bet he doesn't mind hearing me ramble. Connor's blue eyes are quite a simple color, but I still find them pretty. Even when sad, his eyes still hold that strong love in them that I've always found a bit soothing to say the least. One of my few friends who doesn't happen to have glasses, he acts so much like one of my favorite characters who does wear them. He's got Patton's dad jokes to a T, and he's never hesitant to crack a joke so that I'll smile and stop being so depressed all the time. Deep down, though, I know he's got his own struggles like the rest of us, so I'm honored that he's let down his walls for me. It made it easier for me to let mine down, too, and since then he's always been a wonderful support towards me and my demons. Another nice touch about him is that he understands what it's like to be an anxious person that's more or less touch-starved. That being said, it can be nice when he just hugs me out of nowhere; sometimes a hug is a nice little treat to a horrible day. Taller than me by a smidge, one of the only things I'm not 100% fond of is when he calls me his child- I mean, I am older than him still, but I'll deal with it. Connor gets me on so many levels, including being LGBTQ+ and not fitting in, so I am so glad that we met and that I have someone who I can go to and vent to about struggles that not everyone understands.

Taller than me by a few inches maybe and long black hair, the next friend that's always there for me is Bianca. More reserved and a bit quiet sometimes, our "civil" conversations are the best. The school made a horrible mistake by putting us in so many classes together this year, and an even worse mistake of putting us next to each other in a class that has so much free-time. She's gotten me into quite a few shows I'll admit, but I have no issues with that- other than the fact that none of them are finished and now I have to wait for the next episodes to be released. Thanks for that Bonka. Despite that, there are still many finished series and such that we often joke about, and with her being as funny as she is, it calls for some amazing and interesting conversations. Protective and caring, I know I can turn to her if I have troubles with anything. Out of all of my friends, sometimes it feels like she gets me best. Although we may seem quite different, there are so many subjects that I have gone to her about and that's she understood and helped me with better than I could've imagined. Even if I just need to walk in silence with someone for a bit, she gets that, and she just silently walks by my side. Dark eyes may normally seem like an evil thing, but the compassion and care that I see in Bianca's eyes is a comforting feeling. I'm lucky to have gotten so close to someone as amazing as her.

Sometimes his eyes are cold and stern, but I know that behind that layer of protection that he's put up for himself is a deep concern and understanding for the ones he cares about. He's like a big brother to me, which is fitting considering he's both taller and older than me. However, me and some of my other friends have taken to adding the nickname "Mom" to the list of things we already call him to annoy him. With a real name of Josh, he's super protective and caring. Larry, another name we call him, is always there no matter what. It's difficult for him to open up, but being one of the people that he has opened up to makes me feel even more special. He goes through a lot, but he brushes that off almost immediately when he finds out that someone he cares for is not feeling so well either. Very smart, but also pretty quiet, it's a nice kind of feeling when you can get him to talk and not seem so bored or done with the world like he normally is. He acts annoyed with our friend group alot, but I know that he enjoys our company just like we enjoy his. Larry is a strong person, and he'd back up his friend if he thought they were in the right- he's even offered to teach ms how to fight before since he knows I'm not the strongest person. He can be quite funny, and his puns are the best. He normally hides his interests, probably because he seems ashamed of them, but it's nice talking to him and referencing the funny things Zuko and Zane have done. Getting close to him isn't an easy thing, and it makes me feel bad for not talking to him earlier on in the many years that we went to the same school, but I am glad that I did eventually become friends with him, because he's amazing.

With his blueberry-looking hair and a goofy smile, Caeden is probably my height I'd say. Somehow the joke of him being my son starting, but I find it funny, so I'll go along with it. He's funny and almost always seems in a good mood. He's good at keeping his feelings hidden, and even I haven't been able to get him to open up that much, but I'll always offer that option to him. He's a goofball and an anime nerd, but that just makes finding new animes more fun. He's one of the few guys that I've met that aren't too opposed to acknowledging that he does infact cry. He doesn't try to act super duper tough, but he still is tough. He can still be a bit awkward talking about serious topics, but that's understandable. Although not in the LGBTQ+ community like most of my friends, he's still an amazing ally and I'll never forget when he asked me my pronouns. A small gesture, sure, but it meant alot to me. We don't talk too much anymore since he's been doing online school, but I do miss getting to hangout with him. We have't known each other long, but I still value him as a friend.

The last person that really sticks out on my list of friends is someone younger than me, but still about my height. With long blonde hair that's sure to be short soon and glasses that cover their blue eyes, Ray is very adorable. Although I'm yet to be able to meet them face to face, Ray is literally like my clone. We are alike in so many different ways, and a lot of our interests seem to match up, too. Ray's been there for me during some dark times too, and I can't believe that I haven't even known them for a year and I'm already this close to them. A funny thing that's started is that somehow we became each other's Discord wife and everyone else on our server is kind of just like our child or something- I don't fully understand it, but I love it. I really wish I could meet them because they've done so much for me and I wish I could give them something in return for that. When I felt lonely, I could always message them and we'd chat for hours. I remember once we were in a call for 14 hours straight, and it was one of the best calls that I've ever been in. Ray is funny, supportive, caring, and everything else that you could want in a friend. I feel so blessed to have been able to get to know them and become their friend.

All of my friends are similar in ways and different in others, but that's just what makes them special. I wouldn't trade any of them for anything because they've all done so much for me. More than I could ever have imagined or asked for. I am lucky to have so many friends that I can't ever describe each and every one of them. But these are the first few I thought of, and I'd be honored to still be in each of their lives in the future. I love them all so much, and I consider each and every one of them family to me. <3