Klaus X Ben - Suicidal {The Umbrella Academy}

Memories

{MENTIONS OF DRUG S, DRUG INJECTIONS, AND SUICIDE)

27th.January.2007

The Seance ran running happily down the stairs, giggles escaping his chapped yet thick blossom lips, happiness bursting through him as he and his brother played tag, his breathes becoming harsh yet he didn't care, just wanting to make sure his Ben didnt catch him.

 His Ben.

His. Not anyone else's but His. His.

A soft sigh escaping his lips, he let his body take a few seconds to grab his oxgyen back into his already exausted lungs, but he wanted to keep running, to make His Ben happy. They were both happy, and he didn't want to ruin that, yet he felt tears well in his eyes, a silent sob escaping his lips as he looked down, his body trembling softly as he forced to keep his broken cries within himself, his left cheek bursting with fire and warmth for the feeling of Reginald Hargreeves slapping him, again.

"What have I told you Number 4 about running?! Get to your bedroom now and no supper!"Reginald shouted with rage at the boy, anger flooding through him, already telling the children enough times about no running in His home.

His bottom lip starting to quiver with fear and terror, he was able to see his ghost brother on the steps looking at him with sorrow and regret, The Seance letting out a quiet cry as tears started to run down his paper pale cheeks like melted ice, wiping away his tears as he instantly ran back up the stairs, quiet broken cries escaping his lips as he ran straight through his brother and up into his rooom before slamming the door and locking it, feeling himself break once again by his father and his so called family. Running over to his bed, he hide himself under the covers, shattered sobbs escaping him as he squeezed his eyelids to a tight shut, his long oak brown eyelashes becoming soaked from his tears as he tried to make himself think that all of that had never happened and that it was just him and his brother again, yet the feeling of that spicy yet painfully red tingling in his left cheek reminded him that he was a disgrace to his father once again and that it all had happened, his body continuing to shiver and shake with fear as he tightened his grip on his harshly on the duvet over his body, yet you could hear his cries starting to silence themselves the second he heard his childhood lover speak.

"K-klaus?.. A... Are you okay?..." Ben quietly asked as he walked over to his brother, tears welling in his eyes as he tried to hug him but he just watched himself as he walked through everything again, the boy being a ghost so he couldn't touch anything without going through it. Taking a deep breath, he layed down softly on the bed, his body going straight through the covers as he was now laying tenderly next to his crush. Smiling delicately at the sweet boy who was his brother, he raised his hand slowly before placing it against Klaus's cheek, yet right before it would go through the love of his life's body, trying to comfort Klaus as The Horror tried to give everything he had, even if he was a ghost.

Sniffing, Klaus looked at his lover, the loudest most head broken sob escaping his lips as he raised his shaky cream white boney hand to his lips, his tears melting away into the sleeve of his blazer as he instantly moved closer, burrying himself into Ben's chest, yet just enough so his body wouldn't go through his brother's. Slowly starting to calm down again, he had never gotten this close to the boy he loved before, so even though it was overwelming, it helped so much.

"B-b-ben-n-nnie-e..."

1st.June.2009

Taking a deep breath, the nighteen year old boy slowly raised the drug pill to his quivering thick cracked lips, his brother not with him right now, so it was the perfect chance. Through the years, Klaus had fallen deeply into depression and not even His Ben could stop it, so he had secretly bought a couple of drugs pills, hearing that they helped a lot with letting go, so he had taken the desition and did it, shoving the pill in his mouth before swallowing it with water, having to cough a bit from the sourness taste, tears welling in his eyes because he now felt like he had betrayed his brother, but not only a minute later and he felt his head starting to spin, his eyelids starting to flutter as he felt himself letting go, his shoulders untensing as he took in a deep breath, his oxgyen starting to flutter out from his lips as he let himself fall back into bed, the last thing he had heard waas his childhood lover coming into the room and starting to cry.

Ever since that day, Klaus continued to drown himself in drugs, over and over again, flooding away his guilt and trying to cover up his strong passionate feelings for the man he loved, so he started to go to parties aswell, trying everything he could that involved alcohol to block his emotions.

To feel Numb.

But all of that stopped the second he had bought his soul mate back from the dead once they had all reached twenty one, but his relationship with Ben was ruined from his addiction to drugs, and not even a glance to him when he had bought The Horror back, The Seance being kicked out from their family home and to live on the streets, the love and happiness that held all the siblings together becoming broken and cracked, no love left for the poor boy that had only wanted to protect His Ben.

No.

Not His Ben anymore.

Theirs.

Not His, but Their Ben, because His Ben didn't love him anymore, and that is what truly broke him and made him finally loose himself and not care anymore, because without Ben, he had nothing to live for, and that was the reason he had never killed himself through the years, because His-Their Ben, was with him through the years, telling him that the only reason that he had stayed, and didn't go to the light, was because he was with His Klaus, his sweet little octopus boy telling him every single day that he was worth so much and was stronger than anyone could ever know. But look at him now, drugs flooded through his body as he partied with everyone else, now twenty five and continuing to push his feelings away and become Numb again because that was what he did best. To just ruin everything, just like he did with the man that had stolen his heart as a boy and cherished it, care for it and held it like his own child, but he threw it away the second he had taken that one simple yet ruining little drug pill, yet did he?... The Seance taking so many more drugs after that and even starting to inject himself because he couldn't handle the pain anymore of not being able to be with the cute sweet boy with the blue tentacles, who's number was Six, Their Ben Hargreeves.

Theirs.

(First chapter of Klaus X Ben skskdjdj, hope u all enjoyed, I'll be back soon to continue)