The String in between (Tsukiiyama)

Do you love me?

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"I sorry Yamaguchi"

I woke up in a cold sweat, tears in my eyes... that dream again. It's been a week since I realized I had feelings for Tsukii and a week since I was able to see the string, the string that connects Tsukii and me together. I have this dream that I will confess to Tsukii but the ending is always the same, rejection. I've never been so scared of rejection in my life, maybe it's because he's my soulmate or maybe it's because I know the answer.

I've been missing school for a week and had to pretend to be sick when my teammates would come to visit me. Hinata and Kageyama brought me a cake, I'm sure they already knew what was going on since they were there with me when I freaked out seeing that my string lead to Tsukii. I can't miss school for another week, I don't want to disappoint my teammates although I'm not a part of the starting line up. I know they care for me and I'm happy to call them my friends. I start to pack up my things and sit down to eat breakfast, "Are you okay Tadashi?" my mom asked, "I'm fine mom just a little sleepy still I guess" "Tadashi, I know you don't want to go to school and I know this is more than being sick, Kei hasn't visited you. Did something happen?" "w-wha- ... yeah... " I knew there was no use trying to deny it my mom could read me better than anyone else. "Tadashi- oh sweetie" she comes over to hug me and I realized that i started crying which just worried her more, "m-m h--s -- s-----te *hic*" "Tadashi? Sorry I can't hear you?" "*hic*he- m-m- *sniff* so--ma-e" "oh... honey it's okay, shhhh" I knew she couldn't hear me very well but she understood what I said.

I'm walking to school pretty early, I'm sure Tsukii won't wait for me since I've been skipping school for a week. Mom suggested I stay another day but I didn't want to be alone in my room anymore. I have about 30 minutes till the first bell rings so I walk over to Yachi, "Oh! Yamaguchi, you're here today!" "Yeah I've been sick but now I'm ready to practice!"

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(Tsukishima POV)

It's been a week since I've seen yamaguchi "Oh! Yamaguchi" I turn around and he came to school today, he's talking to Yachi. I was about to walk over to him when *THUD* "HEY! Get off of me you tangerine!" "oh sorry tsukishima, I was trying to catch a ball." "tsk" I get up and yamaguchi is talking to Suga, Sugawara looks concerned and yamaguchi just looks away and whispers something to him. I begin walking over to him hoping that I'll be able to hear what they're saying. "Hey Tsukishima! Got a moment?" actually no "whats up?"

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(back to Yamaguchi)

"Suga? You wanted to talk to me?" I say as I walk over to sugawara, "yeah, hey are you okay?" I can be honest with him right? He always cares for us. "Actually, I found out who my soulmate was." He had a concerned face and I looked away, I was scared to say it but I whispered it to him. "Its tsukishima" "Hey Tsukishima! Got a moment?" At that moment I realized Tsukishima was going to walk over here and if he got too close the string would have been revealed, I freaked out and told suga to please help me to hide it. He still looked worried but he nodded and walked over to the Captain.

I wasn't sure what he told him but he nodded and gave me a thumbs up with a smile. "Alright, everyone practice is over, go change in the locker rooms!" Suga then gets Ukai's attention and he looks over to me, "Yamaguchi! Don't think you're getting away that easily" I'm ready to get a lecture when "so? Are you scared?" "huh?" "Sugawara told me what's been going on? So did you confess? Does he know? Are you scared?" "I-I... I haven't and he doesn't know... I'm scared he'll say no and-" "Yamaguchi, before you get way over your head look." I loom in front of me to Ukai Holing out his pinky that connects to ... sensei's? "What? Wait, I'm so confused you and sensi are-" "shh it's a secret but yes and honestly it was a risk I was willing to take. I wasn't sure if our feelings were going to be the same but knowing that at least we will have an unbreakable bond that made me want to take that leap of faith. Anyway it's your decision in the end." "Thank you" I bow and walk away. "Yamaguchi" I turn around and immediately start to walk away. "Ow-" "oh sorry, but this is im-..." he looks at my arm, I look at my arm and I see that the string is hanging from his finger that connects to mine. I start to panic and I don't know what to do, I look up but he isn't looking at me but staring at the string, his face without any expressions. "Tsukii... I'm sorry." I gently pull my hand from his grasp. I look away and he just hugs me? "Yamaguchi don't apologize for this. I'm the one who should apologize, you've been missing school because of me, don't worry we'll continue as we always have been unless you don't want to anymore then that's okay." "I do want to be like we always we're"

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(after school)(yamaguchi POV)

I've been unconsciously glancing at Tsukii all day, this is so confusing and I don't even know what Tsukii wants. "Yamaguchi. Tsukishima. May I have a word." I'm just as confused as Tsukishima is but I can't walk away now especially when the teacher is calling. "Oh so it was true, your club advisor told me that you two found out your were soulmates this morning, I didn't quite believe it since Yamaguchi's birthday was last week but he was absent. Anyway, I am required to have you two fill out these forms in order for you to have the week of school off, of course you are required to catch up on any work that you miss when you are out of school so maybe an idea is to study together. Turn them in to your club advisor by the end of today" "okay" "okay".

On our way to the gym I start to feel uneasy, "yamaguchi" "YES! I-mean yes" I get red. I'm so embarrassed. "Do you really want to be soulmates?" by now we're both standing in front of the gym's entrance "What.." "I mean I the paper says we have to spend a week together but I find it so useless we don't have to but the stupid string is going to pull us together one way or another, look we can just get it over with and end it here." I look straight at his face and at that moment I just blurted out "I hate you.." "what?" "I HATE YOU!" I knew everyone can hear us since Hinata and Kagayama's bickering can be heard inside the gym but I wasn't thinking straight anymore. "I HATE YOU, I hate you, you know you really annoy me I should have known better than to think that I could have been something more than just a friend, *laughs* how stupid am I" I have a smile on my face but I'm crying I can feel the tears... *BAM* I turn around to be hugged by Suga. I look around and everyones at the gym's entrance, Hinata, Kageyama, and Yachi are standing to the side a bit. I can see the concerned look on their faces. No one is talking, it's silent for a while. You can just hear my sniffles, how embarrassing. In the corner of my eyes I see Tsukishima, he has the same poker face as ever but... he looks sad? "Alright, everyone give them space."