Stray Master [MxM]

[Chapter One]

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[Six Years Earlier]

I'm bad at being an adult, or person in general. Frankly, I'm the definition of a mess, and it isn't all my fault, that I swear by. Most of it is, but sometimes, I just don't do what humans need - I forget. Eating, for example, it doesn't work for me, I never find something I want or I forget. Most of the time, my brain doesn't focus on it.

Growing up, I didn't have issues like this. I ate and had good hygiene, was on time for school or appointments. Now, it wasn't me who did that. It was my aunt, she told me what to do and I listened, like a good nephew I am. I'm on my own, living in an apartment I can barely pay rent on, without someone reminding me or telling me to do these things.

This is where the issues come in. I have a job, a good one; a barista at a local coffee shop, not Starbucks, but a quiet one that doesn't have many customers besides regulars. It pays well when one is actually on time and not twenty minutes late, my boss is nice and she doesn't always get angry with me, she cuts pay a few times and will make me work overtime, but she's a kind lady. Especially considering I'm late nearly every day, be it five minutes or twenty. I believe myself lucky she only has three workers and likes me.

That appears lazy as if I couldn't care less about my job or staying in my apartment, it's not though, or I don't mean it to. I have issues sleeping and usually spend nights reading, painting, or just staring at the ceiling telling myself I'll do better the next night and sleep. This means, I don't wake up for my alarm and when I do I'm almost late or already am.

As for hygiene, it's like eating, sometimes I just forget when I had a shower and don't take one that night. Then in the mornings, I'm rushing and not paying attention to what I'm doing, I'll scrub my underarms and such and wash my hair then I'm out. There are days I forget deodorant and need to use the one I keep in my small locker at work, there because it has happened many times.

I don't necessarily stink, no one avoids or tells me I do. My coworker, CeCe, would bluntly tell me if I stunk and so far, that is yet to happen. I don't feel good though, my skin feels dirty and it never feels like I'm a hundred percent healthy in that regard. It bothers me and I attempted to change my schedule, truly change it to a more healthy lifestyle, but nothing I did worked.

It's hard sometimes for a single submissive such as myself to deal with certain things, my thing just happens to be, being an unfunctional human being. I need a dominant to give control over to and that means in every extreme way, others may dislike that idea and I respect that, but I need that.

My past relationships have been with dominant that had control over every decision or action, what I wore or ate, what time I got up at, or went to bed. I love the extreme power exchange, not having to stress about what I'll wear or eat, being late to work, or just simply choosing where to go to dinner. It's a great feeling, being cared for, and knowing I'm in safe hands.

Sadly, I've been single for months now, maybe a year- I'm not great at time and occasionally forget the day. The dominant and I weren't completely happy with our relationship anymore, we didn't connect as much as we thought we did and everything became dull. It wasn't a painful breakup, we mutually agreed it was for the best. It stung me a bit, I had given him everything I could have but I understood if we both weren't happy then it wasn't healthy anymore.

I am over him, have been for a while now. Yet I haven't found another dominant, I don't know where to look seeing as the others found me through my Instagram. I don't post on it much and only go on once a month, but my bio says I'm submissive and single. Flirting isn't my strong suit, I'm shy and could have mild anxiety, I usually just wait for them to find me. It's worked so far and maybe I'll get lucky again.