Rise and Fall of Jimmy Hopkins

Chapter Four

As I past the walkway of the front room I followed her down the right side of the dorm. As we got further down the laughs and the trash talk I heard from the crew slowly turned to murmur's. I leaned against the wall and I looked at Zoe infront of me, back against the wall with her arms crossed, looking dead forward with an angered face. I studied her face and how she sighed, I knew this wasn't going good for me.
"What the fuck is your problem?" She bluntly snapped at me. Her eyes quickly left the wall and started looking through each one of eyes. I rolled mine and fell my eyes to my shoes, as I started to look at my years old worn sneakers I tried to think of of an explanation without riling her up even more. What was my problem? Insecurities? Trust? Was I right to question it? Who the hell knows.
"Was I wrong?" I muttered, not looking away from my shoes. I really need to get a new pair.
"Uh, I think so James. What, you think I'm messing around with him?" She leaned off the wall as she took a step towards me. Ready to shut down whatever I had to say. Well that wasn't the best choice now was it.
"No Zoe, I'm not doing this again. What was the last thing I asked you before you stormed off like a child." I said with more confidence and raised my brows at her. She was taken back about my question as her mouth parted a bit, thinking of a response. "Answer, was I wrong?" I snapped back with venom. She was avoiding my question as her eyes darted around looking at me.
"No..." She told me through her teeth as she clenched her jaw. I sighed as I looked her up and down, waiting her for her to explain herself before I thought the worst. "James, it's my type, I just couldn't help it I-" She closed her eyes as she took a deep breath as she looked back at me. "I was going to tell you Jimmy..." I gave her a slight chuckle as I knew this was coming, I just didn't know when. She's so beautiful, such a catch. Who was I? A nobody, I knew she's find better. I shut up as I thought of the best way I could respond; I didn't want to show her how angry I could get. I took a deep breath as I thought which way was the best to handle this.
"When?" Is all I could muster. I didn't want to know if they fucked, made out, even held hands at the fucking carnival. Either way, she doesn't love me, she used me to get back into this school.
"A week after the last day of school..." She croak as I heard the tears ready the flow from those deseiving brown eyes of hers. I let my back fall against the wall as I slowing slid down, sitting there, thinking. 
"We got together the last day of school...s-so all of this, all that we had, it meant nothing..." I said more to myself then to her. I knew there was no coming back from this, I knew that everything we had was destroyed. I knew I was a dumb motherfucker once again to love. I balled my fists up and put them to my head as I hung it down. I felt stinging in my eyes, most likely from the booze, I was not going to show her any tears. 
"Jimmy no no! You mean everything to me it was all a mistake I swear to you!" She cried as she squated in front of me. I felt her trying to grab my hands which made me flinch and quickly get up. I walked a little bit away just to be safe since I was drinking, emotinal, and angry. I wasn't going to be the man to lay a finger on her no matter what. Then it clicked.
"What do you mean it was all a mistake? Does...does that mean more than fucking once? More the fucking once you cheated?!" I said louder at her. I gave a breathless laugh as I looked at the ceiling, waiting for a reply. I guess I shouldnt be suprised. WHen I looked at her I just saw her hands in her face with her sobbing. Oh don't pull that victim card bullshit on me...
"Fuck you Zoe, just get the hell out of here and never come back!" I yelled back and turned away from her before getting one last look of her; I knew I could never look her in the eyes again. Not after this.

"Don't you walk away from me!" She screamed as I heard her echo through the halls. I'm sure the boys and everyone in their room heard it as well, probab;y heard the whole thing knowing how nosey everyone is. I let the air leave my nose as I shook my head slowly. I turned around to confront her when all I felt were her rings smack me in the cheek. I felt my shoulder collide with the wall as I bounced off and fell to the floor with a thud. What the fuck?!
"You don't know how hard it is being with you. So we're done James. " Zoe told me as she stepped over me as she walked towards the door. On her way out I heard her yell something, couldn't make it out clearing because ringing started in my ears. "Do what you want with him I'm done!"