Mean Love

Prologue

"My mind keeps mumbling your name, it's been there for quite sometime now, how could you do that?" I said looking at him like he's about to erupt any minute now. He's looking so fragile and I can't help but be irritated at him, how could he? Am I worth it? I walk closer to him where I could feel him back away and clutching on his shirt so tight trying to avoid my gazed and presence. I move my hands up to his chin and force him to look at me. "Blue eyes, shining bright blue eyes against the light that shines through those gorgeous skin of yours. I fucking love the way your eyes crinkled when you smile. Why would you be so damn perfect? When I on the other hand, could be so fucking asshole all the time!" He looks at me wide eye, shining not by being embarrassed but by being shocked, he wanted to cry but I don't want him to, I want him to be strong this time not for me but for himself. For god sake Louis, please think of yourself this time, I don't want to hurt you anymore... He looked away and tried to wiggle out of me so I let him, he's about to walk out of my room "All you give was love, and all I give back in return was to slur, curse and make your life miserable. Will you ever be tired loving a person like me Louis?" He was crying now, and I don't want to see that anymore, I walked to the door where he was standing and I took him in my arms and hold him tight, "Please stop loving me Lou, I'm not worth it, give yourself a break from all of this, I can't give you what you want. Please, save yourself before you lose it completely because of me, I can't let that happen to you Lou." All this time, I've been afraid to love someone but now that I can, why is it have to be this hard. I can't destroy what's left with him, if you only knew Louis, if you only knew... He looked at me still crying his heart out, I tried to be tough and hard so that he couldn't see me breaking inside. He just stared at me, not knowing what to do next, so I decided to loose my hands holding him and force myself to walk out the door without looking back at him. When I was about to closed the door, he broke down and hug his knees and just cried and continue to chant the word "How about me? Am I worth it?" That's when I realized this is the biggest mistake I did in my entire life....

Warnings:
-boyxboy
-smut
-mpreg(not sure yet)
-cursing
-top Harry
-bottom Louis
-cheating

Hi there readers, this is my second story I hope you'll support it like my first story "Are We Supposed To Be In Love?" go check it out. Thank you for the reads. Enjoy reading and feel free to comment but please don't be rude!!! Thanks ❤️❤️❤️