Kihyun stood in the middle of the school hallways simply staring into the faces of his bully's who had stopped him and had decided to make a fool out of him, they decided that the would dedicate their lives to making another one miserable.
" go ahead bully me, because the only thing people will remember is in 30 years when I'm your boss, so go ahead." The bully's widened their eyes at the snarky comment coming from kihyun since he never does this,but truth be it kihyun doesn't want to live for another 30 years, in reality he wants to live for another 1 hour, and that's what he was planning to do, so when he made a snarky comment he felt proud but at the same time sad as it was the thing he should've done years ago that would've stopped what was soon to happen.
"Ohhhh Kihyuns got sass, what else you got?" Kihyun rolled his eyes.
"1. You get out my face." He said taking one step forward.
"2. You save me." He said taking another step forward.
"3. You try to take back everything you've done for the past years." Kihyun said now right in the face of his bully.
"1. I'll get out your face once you grow a life."
"2. What would I save you from?"
"3. The past is the past and your just going to have to deal with it." Kihyun chuckled at his words and leant on his tip toes to reach the mans face.
" if you want to save me, I'll be at the park in an hour....... if you don't, I won't be at school tomorrow." He said, but what the bully didn't know was that he was being serious and secretly calling out for help to the only person who actually speaks to him. Yes the person bully's him but that's not the reason he wants to go.
He wants to go because of the pathetic feeling he has always felt for his bully. For some reason he always has had feelings for him. The way he would walk around school with the biggest smile on his face and not care about his surroundings, the way he managed to be really smart, and the way he always expressed his feelings. Something kihyun envied. His name is sohn hyunwoo... and this is just the start of their story together.
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Like kihyun thought, the park was empty and no one was there to experience the real pain he was in, so when his legs started to shake as he climbed him self over the bars of the bridge tears made his way to his face and he let out a frustrated scream, one he wanted to let out for years, the one that he had to consume to himself.
He gripped tightly to the bars, and decided that because no one was around he would let out his feelings hoping that might give him a slight feeling of grief before he could go.
" why me!!!! Mum, why did you have me? You gave birth to me and promised to always stay by my side but why didn't you... why did you leave me... why are you still up there? And why is it now that I want to join you? You said you would keep me from suffering.. THEN WHY AM I? WHY AM I STANDING HERE IN THE EXACT SAME PLACE YOU STOOD........" Kihyun shouted pouring out his feelings as he sobbed.
"Why did you let him get to me?? You knew he was doing this to me.... you knew it! You said you would help me... but you left before you did and now I'm suffering everyday from the pain of the hard cold floor hitting me... WHY DID YOU DO THIS???" Kihyun felt himself running out of air so instead stopped taking and started to loosen his grip.
He looked at the water below, thrashing around against the rocks and the cold breeze flying of from it, which made him cry at the thought of being down there but he knew he had to do this to be out of pain.
" stop being a coward!!!!!" Someone shouted from behind him which snapped kihyun out of all of his thoughts. He recognised the voice so when he turned around he saw the six of them standing there. Changkyun, hyungwon, wonho, minhyuk, jooheon and hyunwoo! His bullies were stood behind him, and at his last moments he still felt the words of pain sting through his heart but decided to shout back anyway.
" people try to say that suicide is the most cowardly act a man could ever could commit. I don't think that's true at all. What's cowardly is treating a man so so badly he wants to commit suicide!!! That's what you did!! All of you bullied me every day and yet not one single part of me wanted revenge!!! YOU HURT ME BUT I NEVER HAD COURAGE TO DO IT BACK !!" He shouted as he let his arms slip of from around the bars and just when he thought he would be falling to a blissful peace he was pulled from the bars and fell onto a hard cold floor instead of the cold water that would've sent him into darkness.
He looked up and saw that hyunwoo had grabbed him and was now holding him tightly around his arms not letting him go. Kihyun got angry and escaped from his grip.
" WHY DID YOU DO THAT!! Why didn't you let me fall!!!! It's what you all wanted anyway... so why now when I'm doing it you can't let the pain go.. please just let the pain go.. I can't deal with it no more.. let it go please." He said as he crawled up into a ball on the floor and began crying, the pain pouring out from his eyes.
" Kihyun? I'm really really sorry for the pain I've caused.. I honestly have no excuses,and I'm just so so sorry for the things I've done for you.. please don't take your life because of me, live you life and forget about what i did, don't let what I said affect you, please I didn't mean it, I didn't think this would happen, just don't go please.." Shownu said as he left a puddle full of tears fall from his eyes and onto the floor.
Kihyun looked up from his arms at the strong man known as hyunwoo who was crying and sniffled, the tears now stopping from falling. He may have bullied him but that was the most comfort he had received for years and he couldn't help but smile and let the happy tears fall down.
"Thankyou." Kihyun said.
"For what?"
"Saving me."
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FanfictionBullied for five years, kihyun decided to take his life, but that doesn't work when his bully's catch him in the act and somehow stop it.... Try to update weekly or even daily.. please read.
