one, four, three.

143

i never knew how to confess my love to her. she was my best friend and we hung out a lot. i don't know, maybe she already figured it out but she clearly doesn't understand my hints and that pisses me off. is she doing it on purpose? or am i stupid?

today was the day. i was going to confess to her. why today? idk, i just can't wait anymore. now, to the biggest part. how? how am i gonna do it? i never did such a thing before! she was my first love since middle school. do i just tell her "i love you"? i've said that millions of times! as a friend, ofc..

in all those k-dramas that i've watched the guy just kisses the girl and confesses to her. I CAN'T JUST DO THAT ?!?! boy stop she's gonna come over any time 🫠

she knocked on the door. should i open it? i don't think i should. what the heck is wrong with you jaehyun?

"heeey!" - she is sooooo pretty..

"hi!"

"how you doing?" - joey, is that you?

"good what about you?"

"same," - smiling through the pain haha

we decided to watch a movie that she likes. as always. it was interesting but all my attention was on her. she looks so cute, damn.. her phone vibrated. nooo, is she leaving? ...yes

"i'm so sorry but yeri really needs me right now :("

"it's okay, don't worry. call me if you need help." - call me idc why just call me

now that she left, i can think about how to confess to her. i can't randomly kiss her or call her or tell her that straightforward. then what the fvck should i do?

taeyong. he knows how to do it, he did it so many times, right? right. oh oh and he even has a girlfriend now!! i'm gonna call him.

"just tell her that you love her, but not as a friend," - is he for real?

"hyung, i can't just tell her that, she's gonna think that i'm joking!"

"kiss her at midnight? oh wait, okay, you can't do that either."

"hyung!!!! you're not helping!!!"

"wait sorry- seulgi is coming, i'll call you later okay??"

"okay," - i know that he's not gonna call.

* later that day *

i sat down in front of my computer. maybe i should google it?

typing... "how to confess to a girl.."

no.. no. *scrolling* also no. what a stupid way to confess! no! that's also not gonna work. shit. waittt, what is that? "one, four, three?" what does that mean? *click* "143 means "I Love You." The abbreviation 143 represents the number of letters in each word of the phrase "I Love You.""

oh wow! that's kinda creative!! should i.. send her this? yes, i'm gonna do it. it's now or never.

jungjaehyun: 143.
pyeongsoomin: m?
pyeongsoomin: sorry jae i'm kinda busy :(
pyeongsoomin: what does that mean?
pyeongsoomin: jae?
jungjaehyun: nevermind.

i hope she at least googles it later..

pyeongsoomin: wait
pyeongsoomin: i googled it
pyeongsoomin: is it what i think it is?
jungjaehyun: finally
jungjaehyun: yes, i love you.
pyeongsoomin: you're so silly!! i love you too!!
jungjaehyun: really?? you do??
pyeongsoomin: ofc i love my best friend!! also, i'm going on a date today!!!
pyeongsoomin: jae??

i told you. maybe another time, i'm kinda used :)