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"doctor? the tardis doesn't happen to have a bathroom does it..?" "well of course it does silly!" he grabbed my wrist and my blood started pounding in my ears. "please don't notice. please don't notice. please don't notice." i prayed silently. im not sure if he noticed or not but i hoped he didn't. "there ya go hayley! you alright?" he sounded concerned about me. i felt tears well up in my eyes, "mhm" i managed to mumble before he saw. i ran into the bathroom and closed the door. "scale scale scale.. please please oh god i-" i opened a cabinet and success, i found it. i pulled it out and put it on the ground. i tapped it to get it to zero then stood on it still and straight. i looked at the number on the scale and felt faint. I sat down on top of the toilet. "don't do it hayley. you know what's happened before. don't let your emotions get the best of you." maybe just a few wouldn't hurt.. i reached into my bag and fished out a small bag. i took off my shirt revealing small white lines all over my stomach and arms. then i dumped out the bag onto the counter. I picked up the slim piece of steel and brought it to my arm, i pressed slightly and dragged from one side to the other. but it didn't bring me the feeling i usually get. i dropped my bag without knowing. then i heard the door. "hayley! are you alright? are you decent? I'm coming in!" the door flew open and i saw the doctor's face change to something I've never seen before. terrified. but not like he's seen an alien or something. almost like panic. "..s..s..sorry doctor.." i let out weakly. "don't be. please make it. stay strong please darling.., for me.." he was starting to cry. "d..d..doctor...p..p..please..d..d..don't cr..cry..i l..l..love..you.." "hayley jordan i.." i didn't hear the rest of his sentence because i passed out. when i woke i didn't know where i was. i looked and saw the doctor talking to a nurse.. but everything else was kind of a blur.. "d..doct..doctor.." he turned quickly and ran to me, his long brown coat flowing behind him. "hayley! you are alright! i was worried sick," he turned to the nurse "can we have a moment alone please?" the nurse nodded and left. he turned back to me. "what happened in there? well i know, but I want to hear it from you.." his voice cracked a bit at the end and i was hoping he wouldn't cry. "well.. i went in there.. and i stepped onto the scale.. and well i wasn't happy.. and then i got angry.. then i got sad., and then i.. cut.. and i felt weak and alone., and when you came in..." i trailed off. "hayley.,, tell me... please..." he was starting to cry. "when you came in..and you held me in your arms..and were talking to me.. i realised something.. i realised that you were the one.." "how do you know im the one, hayley?" "i know because..when i look at you, i find myself singing you are the wind beneath my wings,." he sat there and looked at me for a long while. "doctor?" he leaned over to me and kissed me. then he whispered in my ear "hayley jordan, don't you ever feel like you need to do this, or think that for a minute that i don't need you or care about you, or that i wouldn't do anything for you.." now i was crying. "doctor?" i said again. "yes hayley?" "i..i..love you.. more than I've ever loved anyone ever... in my whole life..if i could live forever.. i would spend it all with y-" he cut me off with a kiss. "hayley i have a confession.." "w..w..what is it..?" he removed his long coat and hung it on the back of the chair he was sitting in. he then took off his brown pinstripe suit jacket, revealing a white undershirt. he laid his arms across my chest and i couldn't speak.. "show me.." he whispered. i slowly lifted my arms from under the blanket. i then removed the gown they put on me. i sat down holding my arms close to my body. he took each of my arms in his hands and examined then. he then brought it to his mouth and kissed it. he kissed up and down both my arms and my stomach. i started to cry, "hayley? are you alright?" i nodded.. "nobody has ever done that before.. people usually make fun of me.. " he now understood. why i was so eager to travel with him. it was because I had nobody. he was the only person i loved now. "he seemed to have read my mind. he leaned over to the bed and put my gown back on. he then proceeded to lean in to my ear and whispered three words that brought tears to my eyes once again. "once you get better we are going to go wherever you want to go, because i want to make you happy." "im never happy anymore. at least i wasn't.. until I met you...doctor.." he smiled at me and i knew from that moment on.. he was the one.. the one and only.
