Why am I so depressed? Why does every little thing that I feel i have done or said wrong bother me so much? Im happy with my life. Im married to a wonderful guy, but i still have these fears that he will end up divorcing me because of my depression cycles. I can't cry in front of him because it makes him feel like shit even though he has done nothing wrong. I must push everything down and smile or just tell him that im tired so I dont cry. If it becomes too overwhelming i go take a shower to slience my tears. If that is kot an option I will send him to the store even if its for 5 minutes.
