The steady shadow of denial
Does rest upon my door
I ask of it one simple thing;
To humble me, to speak my mind
So the Living can acknowledge death
For demons are proud, and offer lies
The Living would not understand!
They give only expectations
They hate all they can't control
And I am no exception
They hold me to their paranoia
Yet to them I'm anti-christened
Grief should have his way at last
Having lived here all this time
He knows, he sees, he decides
He tells the mind he wants to die
Because in this soul, he does reside
Words were spoken, but they're not mine
Fear is deaths of a different kind
He kills the truth, he tells the lies
He controls, empowers, wastes my time
Holds the weapon that wrecks my mind
Steals my reason, my logic too
It's he who knows just where to wound
Pain, my dear, my warm regards
I pushed you down, threw you far
Your loyalty still shows, though it's poor
And you say I owe you more
I have nothing left to give, my friend
So finally now, I welcome it
Death you've dared to knock again
The Living Christians call you sin
But no, not me, I'm different
We've talked so long you're now a friend
Always asking me to wait with you
And listen to your cunning ends
Sorrow, how could I forget?
You hide behind my worst regrets
You're the source of all my demons
Because of you, they continue to live
You're to blame, you are the reason!
But the Living don't believe in treason
Darkness you know my deepest thoughts
Like a lens you tint each and every one
Laughter perishes in your presence
No wonder weeping never lessens
You darken all I think and see
Attempting to warn, attempting to teach
The last of you, I cannot name
Pride is holding my tongue in place
But demons offer a single gift; Denial
For pride forgets, and I expose the lies
It doesn't matter, the demons say
Because. The Living. Still. Deny.
I rushed forward, they pulled me back
I hinted, revealed, and called them out
I hated myself, for speaking their words
Because to hide their existence
Your mind had to be turned
Like all of the Living, you fell for their lies
They gave me a gift. And it's called Denial.
