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Absent Space

Sometimes I can't stop the tears from flowing down my face.

This has happened so much, I am in a familiar place.

Running to the car, I bring my knees to my face.

Howling at this absent space.

Ashamed, nervous, scared, and false.

I can blame myself this time.

Confident that I wouldn't fall.

But fell hard despite my certainly.

Fooled once again.

I let Lucifer seep right in.

Thought I was being strong.

I only wanted to shine all alone.

To prove I could do this without you.

To honor you.

On my own.

But I didn't, I just shamed myself.

Embarrassed now, not able to calm down.

I spend the whole hour hiding my face.

My make-up is ruined, black glitter stains on my cheeks.

Mind is tired, eyes are red.

I guess I'll just pretend, and go to bed.

Still hurting, I explain that I am sorry for trying.

As the night fades on, you bring me in.

Assuring me that I am enough, and that I don't need to prove that I am tough.

I am yours, and I am loved, and all I have to do is ask, and you'll always help.