The Love in our Hearts

Chapter 8: Will i break?

"Please if you can listen to the song it's a really beautiful one in my opinion and thanks"

(Time skips until Thursday because that's the last day he takes class)

I woke up at 11:30 am. "Ahh..last day at least until Monday again" I said as I got up from bed and into the bathroom. I did what I do all the mornings. "I'll wear this" I said to myself. I grabbed some skinny jeans, a black tank top with red stars and a tight not to tight black jacket.

Once I put on my clothes I put my black Vans and slide them on. I grab my keys and a coke bottle from the fridge. It was one of those days when I got up late so I didn't ate anything.

"Hey what's the rush" Hannes said. I gave him a smile "It's just that I'm late so don't worry" I said running but when I was at the exit I look at him. "Hannes thanks for everything take care you know" I said and with that I jumped into my car.

The ride wasn't that bad I got there fast but class started at 12:00 I got there at 12:15. "Finish for this week..I should ask mikasa out today" I said and started walking until I bumped into someone. "Get out of the way Jaeger " said an angry Jean. "Can you see I'm walking here and be in your place you trash" and with that he took off. "Bitch" I said under my breath.

I got on my car and drove home. Then I decided to invite mikasa to dinner tonight.

E~hey are you free tonight?
M~yeah why?
E~do you wanna go out?
M~yeah sure :3
E~okay, I pick you up at 6:30 if it's fine by you
M~sounds perfect
E~bye Love you
M~Love you too

I put away my phone and decided that I should go visit someone. I go out and knocked on Hannes door. "Hey boy is something wrong" he ask with a worried tone. "No I was wondering if you could come with me some were" I said with a sad tone.

"Yea I'll go with you" he said. I guess he knows we're I'm going. We decided to go in my car. I drove us to the place it was rather quiet but a good kind of quiet.

I park my car not to far and we start walking by the side. I already see the open gate and the place that I haven't visited in a long time. I pick up a beautiful flower I see in the ground and took it with me.

We both walk until we stop in front of a tombstone. The name read Carla Jaeger. I get on my knees in front of it and put the flower on top. "Mom I miss you so much...I've tried to live on just like you ask but I feel tired I know I had sometimes when I'm happy but...I need you here you were the one thing in the world that gave me motivation" I say with tears rolling down my cheeks.

"I just want to make you proud and so that what you did weren't in vain. I feel like I'm wasting my life trying to be someone....I just feel really broken without you mom. I just wish you could come back....please mom just one time so you could hold me and say that everything is going to be alright...please.." I said. I was broken I felt like nothing.

"You know you're mother would be very proud of having you and you have been through so much but you never gave up...so don't do it now she's watching over you keep making her happy. I will always stay by your side Eren" said Hannes. And with that he gave me a hug. I hug him back and cried all I could.

"Thanks Hannes you've been the father I never had. I'm sorry for the way I always treated you I knew I was doing the wrong thing but...now I'll make things right thank you" I said standing up. "I'll never give up mom I'll keep going forward no matter what".

"I'm proud of you boy now let's go" said Hannes. "Yeah let's go" I said. We arrived at the apartment Hannes said he was going to eat so he got quickly inside. I too lock my self in and sit on my bed.

"This is the sad song" I said to myself and grabbed my guitar and started playing slowly.

"Today I'm Gonna write a sad song,
I'm gonna make it really long
So that everyone can see,
That I'm very unhappy.

I wish I wasn't always wrong
I wish it wasn't always my fault
But the finger that you're pointing
Has knocked me on my knees
And all you need to know is

I'm so sorry it's not like me,
It's maturity that I'm lacking
So don't, don't let me go
Just let me know that growing up goes slow"

I wonder what my mom and dad would say,
If I told them that I cry each day.
But it's hard enough to live so far away.

I wish I wasn't always cold
I wish I wasn't always alone
When the party is over,
How will I get home?
And all you need to know is

I'm so sorry it's not like me,
It's maturity that I'm lacking
So don't, don't let me go
Just let me know that growing up goes slow

If all the rules were made to bend
And you swore you were my friend
Now I have to start all over again

Cause no one's going to take your place
And I'm scared I'll never save
All the pieces of a love we made

And I'm so sorry, it's not like me
It's maturity that I'm lacking
So don't, don't let me go
Just let me know that I can slip and fall
And you won't let me go
Just let me know that growing up goes slow

And I'm so sorry
It's not like me
It's maturity that I'm lacking
So don't, don't let me go
Just let me know that growing up goes slow." I finished singing to myself.

There were a couple of tears rolling down my cheeks but I didn't care I just put my guitar to the side and rested on my bed. My eyes were tired and so was I so I close them to wait for the date I had in a couple of hours.

"Well this chapter I tried to put some feels. I really hope you enjoy it.
I just hit 2k in this story I'm so happy thank you all for that. Love you all ✌️Alex"