Is That What You Want

Chapter 14- A New Beginning

I woke up, still wrapped in Spencer's arms. Only now we were on our sides facing eachother. I looked at him sleeping soundly, his nose was centimeters from mine.

I wanna kill him.

How could he do this to me? Cheat then talk his way back into my life. How does he have so much power over me? Why does he look so fucking good all the time? He always knows what to say to make me feel better too. This sucks.

"You drive me crazy Spencer Reid."

His eyebrows narrowed as he lazily opened his eyes. My stomach dropped when I realized he was awake.

"Is that a good thing?"

He moved the hair from my face and rubbed my cheekbone with his thumb. I sighed in relief.

"That's not fair."

"What's not fair?"

"You can't just do that Spence. You can't hurt me the way you did and then come back in here all perfect. I wanna hate you so bad but I don't."

"I don't like her as anything more than a friend Dannie."

"Thats not what it looked like."

"I was gonna tell you when I got home. But you weren't there and you wouldn't let me talk to you."

"Tell me what? That you cheated?"

"Baby no. Jennifer and Will have been having difficulties. Will was at the office fighting with her over something. JJ wanted to make him jealous so she kissed me. I never agreed to it and I pushed her off. I told her she was out of line and to never do it again. Honestly, I felt violated."

I wanted to believe him so bad.

"But what about the letter she wrote you?"

"That was fifteen years ago. I asked her onna date. She invited some of the team. She wrote that to me asking for another chance but I never gave it to her."

"Then...why keep it? After all this time?"

"I didn't even know I still had it."

"You promise?"

"I promise."

"I'm so sorry I doubted you."

"Shh no, don't do that. I'm sorry I gave you a reason to."

I leaned in and kissed him gently. Spencer intertwined his legs with mine and began adding friction. He lightly moaned against me.

"Mmm I love you."

"And I love you." I smiled adding a few more peckes before trailing my kisses down to his jawline.

"I love you."

Then down to his neck, sucking and kissing. Leaving marks all over him, claiming him.

"I love you."

He let another sweet moan escape his lips.

"Fuck."

This encouraged me to proceed. I got on top of him, Spence quickly removed his shirt and looked at me. His pupils dialing.

I began grinding against him, the immediate pressure from his morning wood gave me butterflies.

I moved back down to the other side of his neck, moaning a bit in his ear. Then down to his chest, leaving purple love marks.

"Please." He whined.

I got off him and took off his pants and underware. His length shot up and hit his stomach. I licked the tip and slowly started messaging his balls. I began to lick from the bottom to the top.