(Contains potentially graphic depictions of severe s*lf h*rm I'll put a line break and a "———-" before and after. There's also a lot of homophobic language in this one and i just wanted to disclaim that i am no where near homophobic i am actually part of the LGBTQ+ community myself and do NOT condone homophobia!!)
" So Harry", Louis asked as they walked down the hallway, "since we need to work on the project, how about maybe I come over?" Harry's head spun around to Louis, "No! I-i mean um, how about your place?" Harry nervously played with his shirt sleeve, hoping Louis would overlook his obvious panic. Louis eyed him concerned, "Yea, okay H, we can do it at my place." Harry nodded and said goodbye to Louis before taking off down the hall. Did I say something wrong? Louis thought before heading off to his next class.
Harry nervously sat down at the table Niall was at. "Hey Harry." Niall smiled at him. Harry gingerly smiled back, trying to secretly look around to find Louis. "Louis is coming," Harry looked up to Niall winking at him. "I-uh I w-wasn't-" Harry panicked. They can't know I'm a fag already! Am I just that obvious? "Relax Harry, it's okay really," Niall tried to calm him, "I just know the way you look at him, more importantly.... the way he looks at you." Harry looked up from his sleeve he was playing with, filled with confusion. "I-I don't know what you-" "Well Louis-" "Is devastatingly handsome?" Niall was cut off by Louis sitting down next to Harry. Yes. Harry thought to himself. "I'm glad to hear you agree with me H." Louis smiled at Harry. Harry's eyes went wide. "I-uh s-sorry." Harry grabbed his bag and ran off, ignoring the calls of Louis and Niall behind him. He ran to the nearest bathroom and went into a stall, locking it behind him. Harry slapped his hand over his mouth to muffle the sobs. How can you be so fucking stupid! Louis will never be your friend, who would want to be friends with a faggot! Even worse a faggot with a stupid fucking crush! Harry choked back a sob, before ripping open his bag and pulling out a little pink tin. He opened it, pulling out a shiny silver razor. Fat tears rolled down his cheeks as he lowered himself to the floor. Idiot.
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Harry yanked up his sleeve and aggressively dragged the razor across his arm. He kept going and going until his arm was an unrecognizable, bloody mess. Harry finally stopped when he heard a bell ring. "Shit- Fuck-" He mumbled to himself as he realized how much he had just done. He dropped the blade back into open tin, and wrapped his arm in a giant wad of toilet paper. He used the other hand to try and mop up some of the blood in the floor.
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Harry froze as he heard two guys walk in to the bathroom. He recognized the one voice of the guy who made fun of his sweater in class. Shit, Shit, Shit, oh no no no. The boys stopped their conversation and walked over to the stall door of where Harry was. "Is that fucking blood?" Harry panicked as he realized there was a few drops on the other side of the door. Harry speedily grabbed some gauze out of his bag that he had in case of emergency and shittily wrapped his arm. He yanked his sleeve down and put the bloody toilet paper in the toilet and flushed it. "U-Um n-n-no." The one guy laughed. "Ohhh it's the faggot with the purple little sweater." "You on your period faggy?" the other guys cackled. "G-go away please." Gentle tears started rolling down Harry's cheeks as the guys kicked his stall door, in an attempt to get it open. He violently jumped back as the door flew open, broken lock falling to the tile. "No! No no no please!" The one guy grabbed Harry by his unruly curls and yanked him off the floor off the stall and threw him on the floor in the middle of the bathroom. The kicked him a few times and punched him in the eye and nose, being sure he bled. "Holy fuck," The one guy laughed," You a headcase too faggy?" Harry looked down at his arm realizing he bled through the gauze and his arm was drenched in blood. The guys grabbed the trash can and dumped all over Harry. They laughed on their way out of the bathroom, "See you later faggot!"
Harry began to cry on the bathroom floor.
I just want to be pretty...
(i took a bit of a break because i was transitioning into college but i have decided to officially come back xx -k☁️)
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Bubble Gum Chapstick 🍬 (l.s.)
Fanfiction"You taste like bubble gum, my love." - Or, Harry isn't your typically boy, he lives in a world of pink and femininity. After relentless bullying from kids in high school, he's determined to keep his true self hidden away at University. His plan wa...
