Found Love

Four.

It had been 4 weeks, Harry and I had no sexual contact. This wasn't scaring me, nor him. We had decided to take a break from sex because my body had been treating me fairly bad. I would wake up with shooting head pain, I'd run to the bathroom and puke for about 30 minutes then I'd clean his house, where I happened to be staying at. I didn't feel flu sick, but that's probably what it was.
"Babe" harry said softly through the bathroom door. He probably heard me crying from the pain I was in.
"I'll be right out!" I said back, he knew I would be awhile.
"I called and made you an appointment for 11 this morning, you have to find out what's going on." He spoke quietly.
"Harry you know how I feel about the doctors. All they do is give the patient some bullshit medication and send them on their way for all I know I-" he cut me off by pushing open the door and coming straight to cup my cheeks in his warm hands.
"Baby, it will be okay. I just can't stand here and watch you hurt... Can you go? For me..." He sadly spoke, hearing some desperation in his voice I cooly agreed to go.
6 hours had passed and I was now sitting in the waiting room. I hated it here, the smell, the constant crying of someone near by. I hated it.
"Harry... What if they try to give me a needle. You know I can't do that Harry! Do you understand how bad I'll freak out!! I can't-" he cut me off. For the second time today!
"Nicole listen to me. If they get a needle then so be it, I'll be right next to you to hold your hand and kiss you after it's over with. I need you to see what's wrong, I can't go on any longer seeing you hurting. I feel like a lousy boyfriend for not making you come sooner, but it's been four weeks. You need to do this so we both can feel better, baby" he said as he pulled me into his shoulder.
"Okay, for you I will do this but please don't make fun of me if I cry" I shyly said.
"Never baby" he cooed then looked at the sudden sound of my name "styles, nicole" the nurse shouted. Why didn't he tell them my real last name.. I'm confused but that has a nice ring to it! 'Nicole Styles' I like it.
"Babe!" Harry said as he snapped in my face.
"Huh! Oh yeah sorry" I said with a small smirk playing across my lips from the thoughts I was having.
We got back into an exam room and the nurse took my vitals, everything seemed normal. The doctor came in after about 15 minutes.
"Hello, how are you two today?" The nice man asked Harry and I.
"Good, and you?" Harry replied with a slight smile.
"Busy busy day I should say!!" He exclaimed with a chuckle. He continued to talk "I'm Dr.Bowman and I'll be your physician today, now can you please tell me what's going on lately?"
"Well I've been feeling extremely nauseous in the morning, I'll wake up with pounding head pains and then I'll throw up" I said out of breath now.
"Okay, I have a few questions if that's alright." He said while he peered over his glasses at me taking a break from the screen he was previously focused on.
"Yes that's fine" I said looking at my hands intertwined with the man I adored.
"How sexually active are you?" He asked.
"Well the last time we had sex was about a month ago, but before quite frequently" I said boldly, not being hesitant about being sexually active with Harry.
"Okay, and is there being any protection used?" He proceeded with his questions.
"Ye- er.. Well there was one time, the second before the last time we were intimate.. Where we forgot & I had just gotten off of birth control." I said trying not to freak out. I could feel his hand grip tighter around mine, his thumb moving softly against my knuckle.
"Okay, if we could do a vaginal exam and ultra sound that would make everything more clear." He asked scooting his chair out from under the seat he was sat at. I looked at Harry, he was staring at me with such a genuine look in his eyes that I had to abide.
"Alright" I said hesitating a bit.
"Fantastic, I'll be right out in the hall while you undress and put on a robe. Knock when you're ready!" He said with a clap of his hands. I grabbed the robe from the sink counter and hurriedly put this on. I could feel Harrys burning stare, it made me feel safe actually. I was washing my hands trying to eliminate the amount of sweat coming from them when I felt a pair of strong hands wrap around my torso.
"Harry I'm scared.." I said as I dried off my dripping hands.
"I know baby, this could have many turn outs but I will be here wit-" he was cut off by a violent sob rattling my body. He turned me around and pulled me into his chest. He knows what this is doing to me, he knows how stressed I am.
"Hey, baby." He said putting his index finger on my chin in an attempt for me to look at him.
"Look at me Nicole, babe please look at me" he said with a break in his voice. I looked up into his eyes and instantly felt calm
"I love you." He said
What. What did he just say.
"What. Harry, did you mean to say that" I asked
"Every single syllable" he said, a smile forming across his face.
"I love you Harry, I do" I said another cry coming from my lips, this one filled with joy.
"Can we do his now baby, we can handle any of the news that thrown at us, together, we will be together through it all" he reassured me. I moved out of his arms and to the door so I could knock to let the doctor know was ready. He stepped into the room with a smile on his face and things in his hands.. Something caught my eye and I immediately jumped back into Harrys arms and started to yell.
"Please pease don't let this happen Harry please baby, I can't do it" I dug my face into his chest and started to panic. "Harry please"
"Babe you have to do this" he kissed the top of my head.
"Do you think she can keep her face buried into my chest while you do the 'thing'? She has an issue with them as you can tell" he said to the doctor.
"Sure I only have to insert one needle so it won't be a problem" he said. I cringed at the word. The doctor motioned me over to the examine table and I fell onto the table landing on my back with a hard exhale of breath.
"First we'll do the vaginal exam, then the 'thing', after that we will take you for another ultra sound, just a belly one!" He said with a smug grin. He lifted my feet onto the leg separators and lifted my gown. I grabbed Harrys hand with both of mine and he stroked my hair with his other one. The doctor put a cold metal object against me and the exam started. I looked at Harry the whole time, hissing if the doctor did something that hurt. Whenever I showed any amount of pain Harry would clench his jaw and glare at Dr.Bowman. He was protective but I didn't mind.
About ten minutes passed and the vaginal exam was over. I sat up and huffed out a large amount of air I was storing in my lungs. It was time for the 'thing', I was shaking. I put my face against Harrys chest, he grabbed both of my hands with one of his and put his other arm around my head. It's funny how he knew what my reaction would be, that's why he grabbed my hands. I would have hit the doctor without realizing. I took a deep breath when I heard the doctor open the package.
"I need your left arm" he said quietly, seeming like he was trying to concentrate. Harry held out my left arm to the doctor, he held it still for the nice man while I wrapped my right arm around Harrys torso. I felt the tight band around my upper arm and the cold sponge swipe across the inside.
"Shhhhhhhh baby it'll be okay" Harry said kissing the top of my head lightly. The doctor hadn't started yet, he got up and went to the sink.
"Harry can you sing to me" I ask with a slight cry.
"Sure baby" I could feel him smile against my head.
"Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind it was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks and it all makes sense to me" he begins to sing, I hear the doctor roll back up to me proceeding with what he needed to do. Harry must have knew what was about to happen because he started singing again.
"I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You've never loved your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine but I'll love them endlessly" he sang as I felt the doctor push against my arm searching for a good vein.
"I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if i do, it's you, oh it's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you, and all these little things" he continued as I felt a prick and shrieked. I could feel tears rolling down my cheeks. He started to sing louder into my ear.
"You can't go to bed without a cup of tea, and maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
All those conversations are the secrets that I keep though it makes no sense to me
I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh, you still have to squeeze into your jeans but you're perfect to me" he sang into my ear, I could feel his soft breath on my skin.
"I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do, it's you, oh it's you they add up to
I'm in love with you, and all these little things
You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
You'll never treat yourself right darling but I want you to, if I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you oh" he kept on singing to me as I felt the doctor shift to get another tube.
"And I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth, 'cause it's you, oh it's you, it's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you and all these little things" I felt the doctor move the needle to get more blood and gripped Harrys back.
"I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true, oh it's you, it's you they add up to
I'm in love with you" I felt the doctor pull the sharp object out of me and place pressure on the hole.
"And all your little things" he finished the song and I looked up at him. I kissed him lightly before the doctor cleared his throat signaling he wanted us to follow him.
About 45 minutes passed and the ultra sound was done. We were showed back to the examine room and we sat there. We sat in silent anticipation, I figured this would be a good time to talk to Harry.
"Harry, did you mean what you said earlier?" I asked quietly
"Yes I told you, every syllable. You have to understand and not question the fact that I Harry Styles have fallen deeply in love with you, Nicole Hood. I know it's only been a short journey between us so far but you're it for me. You're the only girl I've ever loved and I mean that. Forever is where we are headed." He finished with a smile
"My feelings towards you are to hard and deep to describe because I am in love with you. I'm in love to far to get out and I don't mind. Forever is what we will have together Harry." I happily said. Somewhere in the mix of all these emotions being spilled I moved onto his lap. I didn't mind though I was comfortable. Just as i leaned in to kiss Harry the door was swung open. This damn doctor and his interrupting. I turned to him as he sat on a chair with wheels and rolled over to be exactly in front of Harry and I.
"So let's hear it Doc" Harry clapped and rubbed his hands together.
"Well this may or may not be good news. It's happened many many times in my years of being here in this practice" I scooted up on Harrys knee a bit.
"Harry... Nicole, you guys are going to be parents." He said. My whole world went numb, my ears had a piercing ring in them as I stumbled off of Harrys lap. Would he love me anymore? Would he take back everything he just said? Are we going to keep it? So many things flooded through my mind. I'm an adult but I'm still young, trying to get a hang on life itself. I looked over at my boyfriend who now has his head between his knees and his hands on the back of his neck. His back moved softly up and down indicating the emotion taking over his body. I moved in front of him and sat down on the ground.
"Harry" I spoke suddenly
"Baby, look at me. Please look at me" I begged. I heard the door shut and realized the doctor left us to be alone. He lifted his head and stared at the wall Behind my head. His eyes were red but he was grinning so wide I thought his face would hurt. He looked me in the eyes and swiftly lifted me off my feet. He swung me around laughing and shouting words like "this isn't real!" and "I love you" he was happy? I was beyond happy that he wasn't upset. The doctor came back in handed us papers. "This is a schedule for upcoming appointments you are to attend. You are a mother now so don't make irrational decisions! I'll see you two next month! Have a good night now." He kindly said as Harry and I walked out hand in hand. Harry did a little skip and twirl to the car. He's such a goofball!
Hours had passed and Harry and I were now laying in his bed watching a movie. He couldn't keep his hands off my stomach the whole rest of the night, sometimes he would talk to it, I wasn't far along so there must not be much growing yet but it was cute how he was so excited. He was going to be a wonderful father. I had so many questions in my mind so I decided to ask Harry some.
"Hey Harry" I mumbled
"Yeah princess?" He shot up and looked at me.
"What are we going to do? Where will we live? Are you really happy? What are some names?" I spilled the fast words from my mouth.
"One question at a time baby, but we have 8 months to figure out a name, of course I'm happy! I've never been happier" he said as he relaxed back onto the bed. He didn't answer all of the questions but he did his best. I scooted over to him and pressed a kiss to his soft blemish free cheek. He stretched his hand across my waist and his other rested on my arm lightly tracing circles with his thumb. I rested my head and hand against his chest and felt his heart. I'd rather listen to his heart all day than plug in music. I was lost in my thoughts when he said something softly.
"Move in with me?"