Friends obsession

Chapter Five-

"How long am I going to be staying here"my voice comes out as more of a squeak than intended.
For some reason I feel shy after what just happened between us. He looks at me, the corners of his lips lifting slightly.
He heads for the door and says in a very smug way "as long as I want" before leaving the room and shutting the door behind him. As I hear the sound of the door slam back to its original position I shift back a little as if I was just hit on the head. Back to reality now Luna.
Okay so you just kissed someone you know absolutely nothing about, except his name of course. Oh shit, what the fuck did I say to him 'I'm all yours', the fuck was that!

I need to start thinking again. I do mind. I do care. Then why the fuck did I come here, why do I kiss him or even allow him to come close to me. Stupid.
I need to leave right now. Oh And I need to tell Blair everything that has happened.
A grab my bag and walk down the long beautiful stairs, admiring anything that's within my view as I go down. The house is really stunning and massive.
"Where do you think you're going?" Noah says holding the back of my elbow and turning me around. I didn't even notice he was following me, I was too distracted admiring everything else to hear or notice any other thing.
I wanted to leave without him knowing. Fuck.
"Back to my house" I jerked my hand from his strong grip and continued walking.

When he held my hand, I felt my stomach tightening. His touch feels so amazing and I want him to hold me so that I can have that feeling again. No Luna, leave.
"No your not" he spits out.
"And who the hell are you to tell me what I can and cannot do" I say in a very harsh tone.
"what you said to me L-.."he starts but I interrupt before he continues. "I know what I said Noah, I don't know why I said that.
But I know I didn't mean it, I was just afraid"I lie.
I wasn't afraid anymore. What I said, it came out before I could even think properly.
The way he looked at me, it blocked the entrance of reasonable thoughts. This stranger is doing something to me, of course I won't admit it to him. I need to leave cause I don't know what this is.
We'll both forget the kiss even happened or what I said.
He looks hurt. As if my words went straight into him like a dagger. Why should I care.
"Go" his emotions, very hard to read right now. He's just plane but sounds a bit harsh.
I just walk straight to the door, not bothering to look back as I leave. But something in me wants him to follow me and stop me . I don't know why and this feeling of not knowing what's going on in your own mind is so painful. He doesn't.
I take a cab and head straight home.
I plug in my phone and as it comes on I see 5 missed calls from Blair and 2 messages
*hey I've been calling, I hope your ok. I know you said you'll come over but I've got really good news*
* are you dead*

*hey girl. No, I'm very much alive : ) I need to talk to you to, I'm on my way right now.*

I brush my teeth and change my clothes. I wear a pair of my skinny jeans which shows of my curves and a lace crop top which shows just the right amount of my huge busts.
I know I'm just going over to Blair's, but since she said she's got good news, I'm sure she'll definitely want to go out to celebrate whatever it is. She celebrates even the smallest news,that's good of course, sometimes just meaningless. I always still enjoy anything she does anyways.
I call Nate to come pick me up. He wastes no time to come.
The drive was really quiet. Nothing much to actually talk about with him. But not the awkward quiet type, just a nice short and quiet ride. He waves me off as I step out of the car.
If I and Blair are to go anywhere we would just take a cab. I want Nate to go back to his family, I just don't feel like stressing him out even I know he does not mind.

Her door isn't closed so I just walk in. She gets up and walks toward me with a smile from the position she sat staring at the tv screen.
"Hey" I say as she pulls me in for a hug. I waste no time to return the hug. She's literally going to pop me, I wonder what is making her so happy.
"Guess what" she screams and holds my both shoulders moving side to side forcing me to do the same.
I  stop her after what feels like an hour of doing that, my head was going to fall off. "Blair what is it?,too curious for the guessing game" I say with the little energy in me. We both laugh and she gestures for us to sit on the couch.