New Dawn

PROLOGUE

Have you ever had the feeling that all hope was lost? That no matter how hard you try, things never turn out right? What about when the one thing that was right and good in your life it turns out to be a facade? Well, that's the story of my life. The way I look and act is all part of a cover up. My mom abuses me and my non- existent father is in a gang. Even though I don't see him at least he sends us money to survive. Every time I go to school I have make sure my makeup is flawless in order to hide the bruises. I always do my hair and change into my school uniform in a convenience store bathroom. I always make sure to enter through the school doors with a smile plastered on my face. Every day I hear countless of rumors about me. The most famous one is that I am rich and the only reason I smile and is nice to everyone is because I want them to worship me and to hide the fact that I'm a selfish incompetent bitch.

It hurts. It hurts that they say the things they say. I have never done them any wrong and yet they still say such things. The only good thing about my life is my boyfriend... correction ex-boyfriend.

We had been together for 5 years and he had never known what my life really was like. Looking back at it now I realized he never felt the same way. He has always asked for money and on every one of his birthdays he would always smile at my gift with disappointment in his eyes. It's not fair. Every time I close my eyes all I see is him making out with Ashlyn Webbs. I hate my life. He knew that today was my birthday and yet he still... I guess that this proves that was never meant to be happy or alive. I mean I'm standing on a fucken roof for crying out loud. "Ha haha my life sucks. Oh right my mother did say that my father would come home today. Hahahaha as if he actually cared. He's been out of my life for 16 years and now he finally decides to meet me haahahhahahha!!!!!!!!" I stopped laughing and looked at the sun as it was slowly going under the horizon. I scoffed. "With every new dawn there is a new day. A new day filled with opportunities, huh, Mrs. Scottsfeild." After a few moments I turned and went to my backpack pulling out my notebook/diary and a pencil, turning to an empty page, I began to write my final entry log.

Once I was done, I set it them done and returned to the edge of the building. The sun was about half way set. I turned my back to the traffic down below. I glanced at the sun and scoffed, shifting my eyes up at the multi-colored sky. I smiled at the view, flipping the world off with both hands as I fell backwards in time with the sunset. "FUCK YOU WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!"