I Need You

1

Today has gone like any other day off you've ever had, you make plans, get excited, are ready to go when you phone lights up, Garcia. Her text reads "urgent case, be here asap.". That message sends chills down your spine, Garcia wouldn't talk like that unless she's worried.

You start to get ready for work which will take you a little longer because you were going for a hike that morning and you hadn't showered yet. As you were about to do so your phone rings, this time its Hotch, at this sight your heart drops and you start shaking immediately, first Garcia's text now Hotch is calling you? This can't be good.

With as much as courage you could muster to get your voice stable you answer, "Hello".

Hotch replies asking where you are.

"it's only been a few minutes since I got the message, what's going on?"

"What exactly did Garcia tell you?" He asks.

You read it off and repeat your previous question.

He sighs and tells you he needs you in the office now.

"Do I have time to at least change?" You ask with your voice clearly shaking again.

He tells you to just come as you are, bring extra clothes in your go bag, and to meet him in his office when you get there then hangs up.

At this point you are hyperventilating and shaking worse than ever, they never act like this with you. You basically sprint to your car and head towards the bau.

Your half way to work when you realize you left your go bag by your door. "Fuck" you think as you lay your head on your steering wheel at a red light. There isn't time to turn back now so you do the next best thing, call JJ. She answers and you hear Henry in the background, "hey, are you still home JJ?"

"Yes?" she replies with a questioning tone in her voice, "where else would I be?"

"We have a case didn't Garcia text you?"

"She did but she told me to be there in an hour, is something wrong?"

"I don't know yet Hotch told me to leave immediately, I didn't even have time to change and left my go bag by my door. Can you grab it for me when you come?"

"Yeah y/n/n, is there anything else I can do?"

"Maybe bring a beer or two?" You say chuckling lighten the mood.

"Sounds like we'll need one" she says laughing.

You say your good byes and hang up right as you're pulling into the bau. You park, take a deep breath and walk to the doors. You pass a coworker, trying to act normal but clearly embarrassed by your short shorts, tank top, and tennis shoes.

You start walking faster as to not make eye contact with anyone else and your trying to get to Hotch's office as fast as possible. As you walk past the bullpen you see Hotch close his blinds and step out his door to invite you in, when he turns around you see his eyes move slowly up and down your body and his jaw almost drops at the sight. I expected a reaction but not quite this, but then again you two have always had a secret chemistry you both know about but have never talked as anything more than friends.

He makes eye contact gives a quick firm nod as you walk in infront of him into the office. You feel his eyes rest on your waist before you sit down which makes you feel nervous but also enticed despite how much you hate having feelings for your boss, you're quickly caught away from your imagination as he sits down and looks at you worried but doesn't say anything.

Finally you blurt out "whats happening Hotch?" Your voice breaking and hands still shaking terribly.

"Theres a case in Utah, its a Bundy copycat and he is using the same cave."

At this you burst into tears, Ted Bundy was your father. Your mother was young when he raped her but she got away safe, after she escaped was when he started keeping girls in the cave, and said if he ever found her he would have tortured and killed you both. She always blamed herself for the girls that died in that cave and always told you to never go back to utah.

"I can't do this Hotch" you said in tears with your head in your hands.

He walks over and puts a hand on your back so you look up, you can see the worried love in his eyes. "We need you, this case will be impossible without your knowledge and skill set y/n."

You close your eyes and lean slightly into his hand doing all you can to stop the tears. He moves his hand to your face and wipes a tear with his thumb, your both lost in eachothers eyes, you know this isn't allowed but it just feels so right.

You snap out of it and ask how the case will work.

He says "you will never be alone, we will have a fake name and ID if you would like, and you don't have to go to the cave or be there to apprehend the unsub."

You know how inappropriate this is but you reply, "I don't need the ID, I would like to question any suspects, and you are my partner. Final deal?" you say as confidently as possible while standing up to face him.

"That's what I was hoping for" he says quickly and pulls you in close to him by your waist and kisses you, hard.

You are shocked at first and don't kiss back. He pulls away looking into your eyes and begins letting go of your waist. "Fuck it" you whisper to yourself putting your arms around his neck and kissing him even harder than before.

He lifts you by your waist and you wrap your legs around him in one quick movement, you break away for a breath and you look into eachothers eyes wanting eachother so bad but knowing this can't happen now.

You check the time and still have 20 minutes until JJ is supposed to be there.

You kiss him again. You allow eachothers tongues to fight eachother for dominance. He walks you over to his couch and lays you down gently, you grab his tie and pull him down with you. He breaks away and smiles at you through heavy breaths. That smile, he doesn't use it much and the fact that you put it on his face turns you on so much more than he knows, your skin boils at the feeling of his hands still on your waist. He kisses your jawline moving toward your neck as he slips one hand under your shirt caressing your chest, this almost makes you moan and you know its time to stop.

You put your hand on his cheek and say "we'll have to save this for later" pointing at the clock. He sighs, hangs his head down, and taks a deep breath.

"You've got to be kidding me" he says standing up.

You kiss him quickly one last time, wink and say "see you soon -sir" knowing how much he'll love your use of the word and sashey out of his office.

"Round table in 10" he says firmly while adjusting his tie, but unwillingly shoots a smile at you when you look back, quickly followed by his famous furrowed browns and drill surgent like glare to no one in particular. Almost like he's trying to get back into character before anyone else sees his soft side.