I want you

prologue

I stood there and watched the guy who said who loved her. I watched him hold her in his arms  knowing that it was just to show her off. That should be me. Should I tell her I can't watch her get hurt. It kills my insides. "Babe I gotta go OK" "OK i'll miss you" "me too" She pecked his lips and he walked out her door. He didn't even bother to let an "I LOVE YOU" escape from his lips. If that were me I would have kissed her until her lips were numb, wrap my arms around her and hug her tighter than ever, then say I LOVE YOU and kiss her again, then leave. I want her to feel as if she is important (which she is to me).  She sat on the couch next to me. "isn't he so sweet Kendal" "mhm" I nodded my head and was starring up at the ceiling. "you OK" "yea i'm fine" When I said that I was burning with RAGE. I wasn't fine. I was keeping a secret from the person I loved. The guy that she is dating was freaking cheating on her. I couldn't tell her because I couldn't stand to see her cry, and lately guys have been breaking her heart left from right. If it were me I would never let her go because she's just that important. She makes me smile, she brightens my day. It just sucks that she doesn't feel the same way. "you sure" "yes" "come on you're never this pooped out" "yea I am I just never show you" "Kendall" "yes" "tell me what's wrong" "it's nothing" "is it girl trouble" "i told you i only long for one girl" "and who is that" "someone I dearly love but belongs to someone else" "why dont you tell me anything about your love life" "because its personal" "OK best friends tell each other secrets right" "right, but i'm to afraid to tell you" "don't be" "OK you want me to tell you" "yes" "OK come here" She leaned over and came close to me. Her ear was at the tip of my lips. I was so tempted to nibble on her ear to make her giggle. I started to whisper in her ear. "You really want to know" "yea" "well i'm not telling you" then I sat back on the couch with my arms folded behind me head with a smirk on my face. are you kidding me Kendal" "nope I'm serious" She frowned and she pouted. "oh come Carmen I hate it when your smiles are upside down"   " you cause them" "i do" "no, you know I love you" When she said that it wasnt  the love I was talking about it was the brother/sister love. She kissed my cheek and I could feel myself turning red not pink but RED. I excused myself to her bathroom.  I looked in her mirror and saw a blushing me. I hope she didn't notice. I was back in her living room not knowing what to say. "you OK" "yea i'm fine" "OK" I really was dying to tell her that her boyfriend was cheating. "um Carmen" "yea" "I have something to tell you" "yea is it your secret" "no" "well what is it" "it's about your boyfriend" "OK" " I don't like him" "why" "he uh......" " what" "he isn't committed" "what do you mean" "never mind, forget I told you" "no tell me" "no please don't make me" "KENDAL" "OK OK your boyfriend......." "yes" "he's um" "KENDAL TELL ME NOW" "he's cheating on you" "so he lied" "what do you mean lied" "in the hall I saw him kissing Ashely Hawkins on the forehead in the hall and he told me she was just his younger cousin"  I noticed tears sliding uncontrollably down Carmen's poor little cheeks. How stupid did I feel now? I should have never said anything. Now I'm the one that has guilt.  All because of my fucking jealousy.  She snuggled in my chest. I wrapped my arm around her for comfort. Gosh I felt as if I were the lucky guy to have her, but I wasn't.  I felt her tears fade into my shirt. "Carmen just know there's always a guy that's just waiting to have you" "but who would want me" "A guy with a heart, and don't say things like that don't be insecure about yourself, you have a beautiful smile, your eyes are just a gorgeous deep sea blue, your hair falls perfectly at your side, any guy would be lucky to have you" "you really think so" "absolutely"  The whole time I said those things about her I was hoping if she would notice that I was one of those guys that thought of her like that. "Kendal" "yes beauti...... I mean Carmen" "why am i always getting hurt" "because these relationships are tests and their preparing you for the real one  you get" "how do I know who's the one" "you just will" I kissed her forehead knowing that she saw it as a comfort from a friend kiss. "Come on lets put you to bed" "I don't feel tired and I rather lay here" "here.... a-a-as in laying on me" "yes I feel comfortable." "but I have to go" "well will you lay down with me until i fall asleep" Did she just ask me that. My heart pounded out of my chest as I replayed her words in my head. "fine i guess" I picked her up bridle style and carried her to her room. She laid in my arms still crying in my chest but not as much as she was. I set her down on her bed and covered her. I slid under her covers and she sat up to lay on my chest. I rubbed her back just for the hell of it I have her in my arms anyways. About twenty minutes later I noticed that i was slowly dozing off into a good rest I needed.

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