Caged✔️

PION

She came to me just like a summer breeze, totally unexpected. At first it feels so hot and stingy but when it touches you and you try to feel it, it gives you the warmth that you have been missing your whole life. When i first saw her she was no different than others and i didn't even think i would ever get attached to her this much. I never imagined she would become an essential part of my life.

The first day at our house was pretty normal or more like i was irritated that i brought her to my house. I was irritated that she was not tamed at all, i was irritated that she would bite me when i tried to feed her something...at first she was only a mode of entertainment for me. When i wanted to give her food she would never eat and instead go backwards to avoid me. I just gave up on her.

But after that i started to observe her and the more i observed her the more i felt pity on her that she was caged, that she wasn't allowed to fly like she wants. On day 3 maybe she escaped from us and we were so sad, so worried and so angry on ourselves. I knew she would die outside coz she can't get anything to eat or drink there, all her life she has been caged and didn't know much about eating something else other than a special food and that was not available outside. I never in my thousand life imagined that we will even find her. But to our surprise she was tangled in a bush because she didn't know how to fly much and couldn't escape, so we rushed once again towards her and caught her and brought her to the same prison where she escaped from and we were so happy that we achieved the impossible. We were so happy that we did something that no one could've done.

After that day everything was pretty normal and the thing we knew after that was to be careful with her coz she was pretty smart. After all we humans can't tolerate if someone possess the only thing we dwell about most, intelligence. We can't let someone outdone us. Aren't we? Gradually she started eating from my brother's hand and seeing that we couldn't contain our happiness, all the happiness came at once seeing the little life touching us and eating from our hand. I never ever fed her coz i was afraid she would bite me with her little beak. Thinking back i feel so silly how much of a coward i was. I really wish i could've fed her with my own hands. How can you fear someone so precious. Yes now without knowing how she got so so precious to me, she was no longer a mode of entertainment for me, she was not just some other bird that i brought from the pet store. She was my PION. She had a name, she had a personality, she had everything that a person had. The only difference was she couldn't speak. I wonder what she would say if she knew how to speak. Maybe she would say something like "i want to explore the world, i want to take a flight in the sky, don't keep me in cage" " let me just fly even if i die, even if i can't survive the cruel world let me just feel those soft breezes on my wings, let me be free." I am pretty sure she would've said something like this.

Anyway it's not been an week since she came but suddenly she started to get weird. At first we thought maybe she is trying to fly that's why she is making herself puffy but apparently that was not the reason. Suddenly she started to have bad stools and we got a little concerned for her. No one thought anything serious from that but i knew something was not right so we took her to the vet, the only fucking vet that was available in our small fucking town. We rushed to the hospital and waited in line to get a check up. And when the doctor came i wish i could've threw a brick at him. He was just like "she is sick, she got infected from other birds" and that's all. He didn't even check on her maybe because he knew she wouldn't make it and deep down i got that from his reaction but I simply didn't want to accept it. Yes call me naive but i prayed to God and bribed with him that i would offer him this and that if he makes my Pion healthy once again. How fucking silly i was. Then we gave her medication, took care of her and we got a little happy when she finally started to eat something. She came out of her cage and started to explore the house, she took adorable tiny little steps with those tiny legs of her. I can't even express how happy i was, it's like i became a mother whose baby started to walk for the first time. I was flying in the seventh sky seeing her like that. But god didn't want our happiness to last. They say energy starts running like crazy before your last moment and that's exactly what happened with her. Even writing about her gives me so much pain that I can't describe it in words. My eyes are still wet from this morning and my heart is aching but i am writing coz i want to remember her for the rest of my life. She became my everything in the small amount of time, she became my bundle of joy. Now i know what people call an unconditional love, love without any conditions and boundaries, love without any selfishness, without expecting anything from the other side. I never knew this love was so beautiful.