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I woke up due to a nightmare I felt like someone was watching me. This was not the first time this had  happened but I was scared, my momma had told me it was only my imagination and there was no monster in my room. We even checked together before she tucked me to bed but I wanted to go downstairs and sleep with mama , I knew my mama would be mad at me for being up so late at a school night.
I loved learning, I also loved Ms Liza my class teacher she was beautiful and one day I wanted to be just like her, but still I hated going to school, I did not like my classmates the boys were rude and the girls would not let me join in their games. Except for miss Liza everyone told me I was slow and had to be quicker to be Successful. It was not my fault it took me longer than other children to solve a problem or read but I was trying really hard. Also I missed my momma alot when I was at school. I wanted to stay with her all the time. I was feeling really scared so I slowly crept out of my room, my brother was sleeping peacefully on the other bed and went towards my parents room. I could see a light under their door which meant they were awake.
I was really scared that momma would be mad but I was lonely in bed I wanted to sleep with her. As I was going to enter her room I heard my father speaking.
"we cannot afford these private schools anymore Julie,we need to shift our children to the public school in downtown" what had happened why was dad wanting to shift schools for Ryan and I. Will I not be able to see Ms Liza anymore. I could hear my mother arguing
"James if we change schools for Ryan and Julie in the middle of the year it would affect them badly"
"what do you want me to do Julie I lost all the shares we will be soon on the roads"
"we can go to my family for help they will be able to do something but I won't let you destroy my children's future like this" replied my mother.
"I don't know what to do any more Julie, I am so lost, we can ask help but you'r father hates me and he would only throw this back into my face. I cannot let him do that to me or my children" the tiredness and helplessness in my fathers voice made me weak.
I wanted to be there for him I wanted to comfort him I did not know what else to do.
"we can do one thing" the excitement could be heard in my mother's voice. "you remember my friend from Kansas Rita she is the principle of 'Royal girls school' It's a free of cost school for girls that are orphaned or have no one they finance their education and teach them different skills I think she can help us. Emma can go there" what my momma wanted to send me away but I could not live without her. I cannot go.
"but you know how attached Emma is to you she may not want to go and even if we do send her there what about Ryan we still would not be able to afford his schooling"
"I know but if Emma goes to Kansas we would be able to focus on Ryan and I will also work two jobs we would be able to afford his schooling and Ryan is and intelligent kid he would be able to get a scholar ship after an year or two if he works hard but we all know Emma is not the best in studies so it would be difficult for us to afford her education" I knew I was not the most intelligent like Ryan but I tried my hard I would try harder if it meant I could stay with my family.
"No Julie we cannot do that to Emma, you know she would never willingly go and she is only 8, she is too young to understand our situation, she will see this as something else she can really be sensitive sometimes"
"Then we would have to make her understand as this is the only choice We have " said my mother. They continued to talk but that was the last thing I heard before I went back into my room.
The only thing I understood from my parents conversation was that they wanted to get rid of me. A eight years old brain could not comprehend or understand the problems its parents were facing and only understood one thing from the whole conversation between my parents that I was a burden on them who they wanted to get rid of. In time I may be able to understand their situation and their need to send me away but it was not today.

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