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Im fine (depressed! Suicidal! Human! Colin x human! Tony)

Warning: suicide attempts, mentions of the TCS (if you have watched L is weegee dubs you will probably know what I mean), self harm, depression, voices inside of head and swearing.

-Colin's pov-
I hate my life, why does everyone act like they hate me when I did nothing wrong, Gilbert hates my guts, Larry doesn't like me, shrignold ignores me, Paige actually kinda likes me.....she says that I'm really interesting to talk to, I think tony doesn't like any of us but most of the people in this household hates me, I just sometimes wish I didn't exist. I sat in my room alone like I always am, I then thought to myself "should I do it again.......yeah I bet they wouldn't even give a shit" then I grabbed the knife and I looked at myself in the mirror, I thought to myself "I look so gross......I now kinda understand why they hate me......I'm so fucking ugly" then I took off my shirt and I slitted my chest and my waist and then my wrists, I thought to myself "that song about you was a fucking lie, you think your so 'UwU I'm such a smart clever boy' when In reality your fucking dumb, everyone fucking hates you and you know it" then I went back to bed, Gilbert was already asleep but I sat on my bed and cried myself to sleep.

-next day and still Colin's pov-
I woke up then I thought to myself "why didn't I die in my sleep....I wish I was dead to be honest" I then got onto my phone and scrolled through tiktok, I decided to make an account I called it 'colinwollin' and I followed everyone in the household. I then grabbed a lighter and burned my thighs and my chest with it, I then saw Gilbert wake up, me and Gilbert share a room, then Gilbert said "what was that burning smell, it smelt like flesh burning" then I said "I-I don't know" he gave me a suspicious look like he was saying 'I know your lying' then left to get food, I didn't want food, I wasn't hungry, I heard the voice say "they won't care if they find out you burn yourself and that you cut, they wouldn't care if you was gone" I believed the voice, I thought that I was worthless, useless, annoying and that I wasn't welcome here and that I should just kill myself.

-few weeks later and Gilbert's pov-
I was worried about Colin because he wasn't acting like himself, he seemed more sad and upset, I don't like him but I don't want to see him upset, he always now stuttered when he spoke but he rarely spoke to anyone now he used to always talk for hours on end but now he rarely spoke a word, I really wanted to know what was going on with Colin, then at night I was trying to sleep then I heard noises coming from Colin's bed, it sounded like he was crying so I quitely went up to him slowly trying not to disturb him and I heard crying, I thought "Colin is crying? I never heard him cry before?" Then since he moved a bit I quickly and quitely went back into my bed, then I watched while covering myself with the duvet so it seemed like I was asleep I saw him get out of bed and go to the bathroom then after a few seconds came out of the bathroom with a knife, then he sat on his bed and started to slit his wrists, I was shocked and really upset, why was he doing this to himself, I had to stop him before he cuts himself to death, I do hate him sometimes but I didn't want him to die, I ran out of bed and pinned Colin down and tried to take the knife out of his hands, when I got the knife out of Colin's hands so he couldn't hurt himself anymore he said "why did you do that.......give it back" I said "no I won't give it back I don't want you to hurt yourself or die" then I put the knife on the top of the cubored where we keep our clothes then Colin got up and tried to climb the cubored so he could get the knife back, I had to pull him off of the cubored so he can get to the knife, he then said "stop trying to stop me......just let me die, I don't want to live on this earth anymore........everyone hates me and If you hate me so much you would just let me die" I then said "I never said I hated you.......why do you think that Colin?" Colin then said "because you treat me like shit, you even say you hate me, you call me 'stupid', 'narcissistic', 'arrogant' and 'annoying', you also treat me like you hate me.....can you please give me back the knife" I never realized until now how badly I treated Colin, I didn't know this was how he really felt when I said those things, I then said "no I'm not giving you back the knife" then I got some bandages and bandaged up Colin's arms then I said "I'm sorry colin for how I treated you......I didn't k ow you actually felt like that......also Colin.....please don't cut yourself again because......I don't want you to die......." then I hugged colin and he hugged me back.