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Love Of My Life, You've Hurt Me - Queen [Deacury]

Summary:
John is with Veronica whilst being in a secret relationship with Freddie. But what happens when Veronica gets pregnant? (angst) (btw!! i am in no way trying to disrespect johnica by writing this :)

"Hello!" Freddie called cheerful as usual as he waltzed into the studio. Though, to his surprise, he didn't hear Roger calling back, didn't see Brian smiling whilst sipping his third cup of coffee and didn't feel John's arms around him. The only thing that welcomed him was silence.
He raised his eyebrows and proceeded to walk further when he saw his boyfriend on the verge of tears and Roger with a comforting hand on his back, both sat on the couch.

"Dear? What's wrong?" He asked, Deaky raising his head up sharply with horror. The youngest looked at Roger who gave him an encouraging look and turned back at Freddie.

He sighed shakily. "We-We need to talk, Fred. I have to tell you something."

Freddie cocked his head to the side and nodded, holding his hand out for John. He took it and pulled Freddie into another room and closed the door behind them, leaving Roger alone as Brian hadn't arrived yet.

"I'm all ears, Deaks. What is it?"

John took a deep breath in and rubbed his forehead, blinking his tears away. "Wait. Please..." He begged. After a while of John trying to gain his courage and Freddie just staring at him confused as his boyfriend paced around the room, John finally broke the silence. "God, you'll never forgive me for this." He said, a whimper following. Freddie turned him to himself and wiped the tears away that the younger hadn't even noticed.

"You know I can never stay mad at you for long, John."

"No this isn't like a stupid fight, Freddie." He sobbed. "This is serious..." The bassist sniffled.

"What is it then, darling?"

"Freddie, look, I love you with all my heart and I'm very very sorry for what I did." He paused. "Now we're gonna break up because of this! Gosh, how stupid was I for letting this happen?!" 

"Break up?" Freddie asked in a voice a little higher than a whisper, slowly understanding how important the topic really is.

John nodded shortly and wiped the tears on his cheeks before continuing. "Veronica called-"

"Veronica?" Freddie asked, the name raising jealousy in him.

"Yes." John replied.

"What's is it with Veronica?"

John exhaled, closing his eyes and trying to keep the new tears from falling. "She called me to tell me that I-" He stopped for a second and opened his eyes. "Freddie, I'm so sorry."

"Go on, John. You, what?"

"She's pregnant, Freddie." He let out and Freddie felt his whole world crumble on him. "I-I got her pregnant."

"What?" Freddie asked, not quite comprehending (or not wanting to comprehend) what John said.

"She's pregnant."
Freddie let out a breath, turned around and sat on the couch, placing his head between his hands. With the truth sinking in, he started tearing up. John sat down next to him and tried to put a hand on his shoulder when Freddie suddenly got up, leaving him alone on the couch with a hand in the air.
"Freddie-" He whispered.

"For one second, don't talk. Please." Freddie pleaded, hands covering his face. When he finally removed them, he looked straight at John's eyes.
"How did this happen?"

"I was drunk." He answered in a little voice.

Freddie laughed angrily. "Such an amazing excuse. Look at this! He was drunk!" Another tear was shed by John and Freddie lowered his voice with sheer sadness on his face. "I haven't been getting intimate with Mary since I fell in love you and you do this to me? Great." He said sarcastically and John let out another sob after this scold.
"And now you'll have to marry her because of your family, right?"
John nodded and Freddie felt his heart break into even more pieces if that was possible.

"I'm so sorry, Fred. You know my family's opinions on being gay and sleeping together before marriage are. I can't risk getting disowned and I can't be a douchebag to leave Veronica while she's pregnant with my child."

Freddie stared at him for a few seconds before shaking his head with tears now streaming down his face. "Do you know how hard I'm trying not to yell at you right now?" He said in a low voice as he didn't trust his voice. John kept looking down with his boyfriend kept staring at him. "Before this all got serious, I asked you your preference. I asked you who you prefered and you chose me and told me that you would break up with her. Instead of doing that, you broke my heart! Just because you couldn't control your horniness!"

"I told you I was drunk!" John started getting up but Freddie cut him off.

"I listened to you enough! Now it's your turn to listen!" He shouted, his tears wetting his face. "Even after everything you've told me, I'm still so fucking in love with you and it's so hard to take in!" He panted a while, both of them crying. "I still want to kiss you right now, and hold you, and tell you it's all going to be alright but it's not going to be!" He sobbed and John covered his face.
"After I fell in love with you, I realized I haven't fallen in love with anyone before. I have never been infatuated before. John...before I met you I was questioning myself but after we got together I realized who I really was."

"F-Freddie don't say things like that." John wiped his new tears with the back of his hand, his voice shaky.

"But it's the truth! And truth hurts doesn't it John Richard Deacon?" Freddie replied, lowering his voice towards the end of the sentence. "Hurts more than anything?"

John just continued weeping and sniffling, nodding his head.

"It's nothing compared to what you've done to me." Freddie shook his head.

"S-Stop! Please!" John sat back on the couch, curling up as much as he could. "Freddie please stop it." He looked up. "Please, let me hug you. Please."

"Go hug your Veronica."

"Do you think this is the life I want?!" John screamed, getting up. "Do you think I wanted to be a father at twenty four?! Yes, I'm so happy that I am going to be but I'm still too young, Freddie! This was never what I planned! I can't risk getting disowned, okay?! Do you understand me?! I would've wanted to be with you! And as you're still in love with me, I am too! I love you! I love you! I love you more than anything and anyone! Goddamnit!!" John screamed, getting closer to his boyfriend, the tears of a blend of remorse, sadness and anger streaming down his face, not letting him see Freddie clearly.
They paused for a few seconds before the older boy spoke.

"From now on, our relationship is only professional. The only thing we share is the music. Thank you for giving me the best memories possible. I hope you have a happy life with your family, John." Freddie said solemnly, no tears escaping his eyes anymore. He turned around and got out of the room, leaving John there, all alone, in pain.