He's MINE

Emotional turmoil

The next morning,
My head aches.. ahh i want a strong tea.
I start shouting " claraaaaa i want teaaaaa strong one please"
She starts laughing and says loudly " of course madem "
I roll my eyes as if she can see. So many times i told her not to call me madem or ma'am or anything still .. she's bent on that

I start getting ready fr the day . So i decided on a black and white tweed skirt and a matching jacket with three quater sleeves . I put a silk sleeveless blouse under. Leaving jacket unbuttoned so the blouse is seen. To complete the look,
I add a pearl choker, matching studs, and a
black 2 inch heels .

I showhow thought my hands need a bit accessory so i start looking for a matching pair of bracelets and thats when i saw those bracelets which were gifted by HIM. My ex Steven
Why?? Why can't i just forget abt him? why the fuck i still have these Maybe i can't bcz once upon a time i loved him i truly loved him and then i had to leave him but he clearly wasnt a good person but that alone isn't enough for to forget abt him. 

I hate this side of mine. Yeah i do like seriously whenever i want to think about myself my own betterment but somehow i end up thinking about others and i just give up. I give up my happiness.
ik anyone would question me
Why the fuck would i do that anyway?
But it's true godamit.
Why do i always end up thinking about HIM? ...
hell noooo

Just when Clara came to call me for breakfast.
I threw the bracelets in my bin and my hands ended up being empty.
I took all my belongings,my purse including my phone, wallet, makeup pouch, the red pear file, my fav lipbalm, and most imp my earbuds
And of course can't forgot my circle spectrums glasses Lol

I went towards our massive kitchen passing through the hall stairs which is above the study room.

I sat on my chair and clara put the fried egg,salad and buns in front of me and my mouth becomes watery. Yes cause clara is the best cook in this whole universe
I complimented her by saying " my mouth is drooping "
She smiled at me " then i guess i should bring u some napkin"
And we start LAUGHING just when liam joined us looking tired and pale af  he's looked as he hasn't slept the whole night and ig he's been smoking too ..
He greeted us good morning and sat on his permanent chair
And poured his coffee.
" li what's with you these days? Huh dont u at all sleep at night?"

I asked his by passing the sugar. He just shrugged and went back drinking his coffee.
I looked at clara fr any explanation, she just shrugged and looked at me for talking him out of it.Again i called him " li " he didnt evn bother to evn look at me and kept his eyes on his phone ..

how disrespectful Liam

I simply gt a little irritated and yelled " Liam? "
He immediately dropped his phone and looked at me like an scary cat. i smirked Internally.
i still am the boss out here broo

He started explaining " sis please i just .. "
i asked " i just what? "
he said " i just .. we ..i mean we got into a argument last night and .. "
i rose my eyebrow in confusion "We who?"
He shook his head
" we as in me and kate sis who else?"
Me and clara got our mouth in O shape
I replied " okay continue "

" so basically i wnted to take her to a surprise date and just wnted to spent some quality time wid her but she said she can't she's busy so i told her .. "
he looked at me and removed his gaze from mine
those guilty eyes looked towards his foot and
what he said ws beyond my imagination
" i um told her i just thought little lie wont harm anything ri8? .. i told her that her mother had an accident " ...

i blinked twice looking at li as if he grew 2heads and
He just kept his head low in embarrassment
" ik i shouldn't have said that " he admitted
"i didn't mean to hurt her"

I couldn't imagine this omg how could he???
Clara was also beyond shocked and held me tight by my arms n Thankgod for that otherwise i myself didn't had any idea what would i have done to Li that time, my blood was boiling. I had my hand in a fist. I closed my eyes and calmed my myself .
And i thought to myself that i couldn't just yell at him for this n make this more complicated right? I did what my mom would have probably done if she was here today ..

I looked at clara assured her that i will handle this ..
After that i went near him kept my hand above his
And he raised his head looked at me sadly
I softened my face and started explaining
" baby u k the moment i got the news that the plane in which mom n dad were travelling had a big mishap
And only few people could survive .. i was devastated
I wished if the earth could swallow me before i can hear any bad news
I wished if it's a dream and i woke and mom angrily came to my room to wake me up for the 9th time and dad would call me from downstairs to warn me mom is actually fire
( i smiled at those memories so did he ) and just like that my life had just become shallow and void of course u felt the same right dear?
Only we both k how we felt and how devastating impact it left us with yeah?
Liam i don't k abt others but the kids like us who are orphans like ... just like us we should be able to understand them their pain n vice versa ri8 n kate she also doesnt have her dad wid her anymore RIGHT her mother is all she have and you ..
how could.. YOU? out of everyone?

Realisation took all over his face. Tear began to form in his eyes. He held his face in palms. And i .. i just hugged him tightly began to sob a bit remembering our parentS.

After that he just bid goodbyes to me and clara before hugging us tightly and thn left to meet kate.

I ws just watching him get into the car n drive away
While clara came to me and smiled proudly at me
N said " and you are indeed the daughter of
Mr.Dent Addison "
To make the situation a little lighter,i faked a heart ache
" ouch i knew,u always had a doubt on me "
She nudged my arms before laughing loudly while i joined back.

After all these emotional turmoil .. time to get back to work, to get back to reality
I was already running a bit late. shit
I quickly drived and within 15min reached my 2nd home.

Quickly after grabbing my necessary files my PA run to me for the whole day scheduled meetings which included the
one of the most successful and richest legacy THE COHENS. I've heard a lot about them.. finally i get to work wid thm ig

                                     It's gnna be a long day

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