mattia and i.

Chapter 22

*Three weeks later*

*Mattia's POV*

My mom has been in the hospital for almost a month now since she fainted in the airport and it's been a living hell especially because I don't have Izzy here by my side. There are always two daunting memories that I keep on seeing. The first one a flashback of my mom fainting in the airport and then the second flashback is of Izzy shaking her head at me before she went into her house the night we broke up. I hated Quinton for breaking her heart but I did the same thing. I missed everything about her, the way her brown eyes would gleam so brightly everytime she would see me, the way she her right dimple was slightly bigger than the other, the way her scent would make every room smell 10x better and the way her hair would fall in all different directions but would always fall perfectly.

Every day after school, sometimes after I had hung out with the group, excluding Izzy because she was avoiding me at all costs, I would come to the hospital and sit with my mom for hours, until visiting hours were over which was around 9pm. It was 7pm right now and I had been by my mom's side for about two hours and a half already. I had gone to go and get us some water and food from the cafeteria but by the time I got back my mom had fallen asleep. Because she had been diagnosed too late, she couldn't go for any chemotherapy so she was extremely weak. She had been diagnosed with Stage 4 breast cancer which was the most rarest and worst cancer stage. It means that the cancer started in one place but has no spread to other parts of the body. My mother did not look like her normal joyous and vibrant self anymore, instead she was replaced by a fragile and pale looking woman who couldn't even sit up properly without assistance.

She was still beautiful to me, her personality and her character still shone through her almost transparent skin and she could still light up the room just like Izzy could. 

I watched my mother's chest slowly rising and falling with every struggling breath while her her heart rate monitor missed a beep at every second heartbeat. I laid my heads in my hands and let the tears fall silently, trying not to make any sound that could wake her.

"Mi amor" I heard a quiet voice call out.

I looked up to be met with my mother's soft eyes.

"hey, your up." I replied, replacing my solemn face with smile.

"Please don't cry mi amor, I'm going to get better." She said softly.

"Yeah, I know, I just- Mama what if you don't ? You can't leave me." I blurted out, unable to pretend anymore.

"I will never leave you Tia, I will always be right there." She replied, pointing to my heart.

I smiled and grabbed her hand, kissing it gently.

"Tia, where's Bella ?" She asked. I looked up at her surprised.

"Mama I-I did something stupid" I replied.

"Matti-" She began, her mood suddenly changing.

"No no Mama, I didn't cheat, I would never !" I said, I knew my mother knew I would never cheat but she was so protective over Izzy that she always assumed the worst even if it meant her own son. "The night I first came to the hospital and you told me everything and how she knew, when I got home we started fighting and things got out of control and we broke up." 

"Mi amor. I understand you were angry about my sickness but this is exactly why I didn't want to tell you. I knew Bella wanted to tell you but I made her swear that she wouldn't, that I wanted to tell you myself. But you need to fix this, you guys belong together, you know this." She replied.

"I know Mama, I know. I'm trying to fix things but she keeps avoiding me and I don't want to go over to speak to her because I need to respect her space." I admitted.